F. Shushian ♥

I love you like a love song.

2011-09-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

I can't loose you.

Haii, i'm back to blog again haha! I've neglected my blog for such a long time. I'm currently feeling super bored and i'm studying for tomorrow's trials. Trials totally ruined my mood urgh :( so many things running through my mind now, I don't know what should I do. Ignore or?

I'm pretty down nowadays. I can simply feel that you doesn't need me that much anymore. I just hope that what I felt wasn't true. I've been crying for so many nights just because i've did something really wrong behind you. I don't think i deserve your love anymore, I always feel like giving up but in the end I failed. I really couldn't afford to loose you. I need you in my life. Do you still need me too?

Sometimes, I just hate myself so much. I wanted to kill myself so badly! I can't believe that i'm actually breaking your heart over and over again. I'm so useless, yes I am. I can't do anything that can make you love me more. What i did is, make you think that i'm still a little girl and need you to take care of me. I can't do anything to make you thinks that i'ma grown up girl already.. I don't know how, i just don't know how.

Maybe I really aren't the one for you. But one day, I will be the one you want! :)

I miss you, xo!

You are evil.

2011-07-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

Friends? You call yourself a friend?

I don't know whats wrong with you now? I don't get why do you wanna backstab us? So maybe you're mad at us because you dump you alone in school? And you think we wanna dump you alone in school? No, we didn't taught of that before until we found out tons of things from you. Why do you wanna lie to all of us? We didn't want to hate you but you made all of us hate you now!

I just don't get why do you wanna lie. If your sister doesn't allows you to go out, then just tell us that your sister doesn't allows you. Why do you wanna plan everything perfectly with us then in the end you're the one who did not show up. Do you know whats the feeling? I don't think you know cause we never do that to you before. And girl, it's not the first time you did that. I think more than 3? You even lied to us about your driving license. Wtf? If you don't have license yet, just tell us. Why wanna lie? I really don't know who you are right now.. I don't know how to face you and talk you. Let's just be strangers.

Thats all i'm gonna say.

XO.

You Belong With Me!

2011-06-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

My girls.com! :)

I've new blogskin :D btw, have been neglecting this blog for so long! Now, I'm back to update again :) oh well, skipped school today due to the sickness. Having terrible soar throat now, and i feel like i'm breaking down in no time :( I hate it when i'm sick cause it makes my mood goes really really down! Urgh!

I've finished my mid-term but, I still can feel the stress! :/ my results is so ugly.. like really really ugly! I don't know what is actually wrong with me during mid-term's exam! Maybe i'm just too tired? Soon, Parents Day is coming soon :O I don't know who am I gonna explain to my parents about my super dooper ugly results! I went really really regret after knowing all my results.. Sigh. It's already over, I can do nothing though!

Hmm, my mind is kinda empty :/ nothing appear out in my mind now I shall go and sleep!

XO!

Running through my mind.

2011-05-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

Today i don't feel like doing anythinggg. - Bruno Mars.

I'm back to blog again, oh yes! Sorry I wanted to update that day it doesn't allows me to log in urgh! Now, I can finally log into my account and sadly i still can't log into my Tumblr sigh! I don't know whats wrong with all my accounts la :( all can't log in one and i'm really sick of it! Oh btw, it's

HOLIDAYS ALREADY!!!

I'm still planning what should I do during this two weeks of holidays.. Hmm i've got no plans lah actually, maybe outing with friends or stay at home? But you know me, I won't rot at home for two whole damn weeks! I might die at home hahahahaha! So, exam's obviously over and i don't wish my papers will come back to me cause i don't even dare to look at my results! Its gonna be really sucky suck to the max. I don't know how to show it to my parents and tuition teacher especially maths :/ hmm, scary! Alright, ignore about it first! :)

By the way, Im'ma braceface from today onwards for two years hahahaha! Although it's kinda suffer now, but it will be pretty after taking it off :) oh well, i really don't get used to it now lah. It's so hard for me to eat :( all i can eat now is, something watery and no solid foods for me :( aww men! This is not enjoying life hmmm :/ I shall slowly get used it then.

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Editing this post soon!

Price Tag.

2011-04-29T14:07:00.000+08:00

Don't say no no no no, just say yeah yeah yeah yeah :)

Hellow jellow! Ooopsie, I abandoned my blogger. But now, i'm back for it abandoning my Tumblr since i freaking lost my password and can't find back, LOL.

So world, hows life going on? Some people enjoying life huh? Well i'm not enjoying at all. I've gotto face many exams and it's giving stress. I feel like giving up on studies sometimes but i think twice deeply and say to myself, "suffer and go through this few more months will do." Yeah, few more months and i'll be free from high school and go on suffer in collage. Haha LOL. But hey at least, don't have to go tuitions :P

Mid-term exam starting in less than 7 days. I haven't even get myself prepared. I'm so so so doom-ed again in this exams. I don't really pay attention in school and won't stop falling asleep in class :O I MUST STOP THIS. I need to pay more attention to the teacher and study real hard to score all subject but hey, lucky that i've dropped accounts nyahahaha! I don't have to suffer in accounts project but needa suffer in addmaths :( OH, addmaths, please allow me to love and understand you please! :(

Well school's fine. :)

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I find fighting over small situation is really a childish act. I'm so tired of fighting over all these. And also had enough of everything. I don't know what should I do now but all i know is to, cry every night before sleeping. I know in this world, i'm not the only one who is crying every night before sleeping. There is many more people out there is crying with me every night. I've been acting happy and active when i'm out or in school. I never want all my friends worried about me. All my friends in school see me, laughing, joking and more in school and thinks that i'm really happy. Yes, i'm happy at the outside but broken in the inside. And i know i'm not the only with broken heart now. Anyone i see on the street walking can be broken hearted now too although we see them smiling.

You, are the only one who can heal my scars now. And i hope that i could heal your scars too.

XO!

Jar of hearts.

2011-04-02T23:43:00.006+08:00

I'm back again ;)

Hi world, how are you these day? I'm doing great and absolutely fine! Well, was supposed to delete my precious blog since baby asked to! But today, I told him that I deleted my blog, he went like,

SHEN: WHY! Your blog got our memories one leh!
SHIAN: You asked me to deleted yesterday.
SHEN: I just joking only mah.
SHIAN: Haha, nolah! I did not delete my blog ;)

Seeee, he's so cute teeehee! :)

I love you, because you made me smile all the time.
I love you, because you miss me every second, minute, time, hour and day.
I love you, because you brought be back to life.
I love you, because you said you love me too.
I love you, because you call me every night just to accompany me.
I love you, because you never get mad at me on small issue.
I love you, because you pampered me all time and treating me like a princess.
I love you, because you said that i'm your baby forever from the day we walked together on 27th June 2010.
I love you, because you always here for me when I need you.
I love you, because you always get me what i wanted.
I love you, because you satisfied me all the time.
I love you, because you never show your temper to me all the time.
I love you, because you smile to me all the time.
I love you, because you sacrificed cause of me.
I love you, because you never leave me alone.
I love you, because you gives me surprises all the time.
I love you, because you cry for me.
I love you, because you protects me.
I love you, because you gave me the most greatest security.
I love you, because you don't look at other girls.
I love you, because you said you will never leave me.
I love you, because you kissed me.
I love you, because you gets jealous sometimes.
I love you, because you cared so much for me.
I love you, because you cheer me up all the time.
I love you, because you said that i'm cute & pretty in your heart.
I love you, because once you hold my hand you will never let go.
I love you, because you love all those presents that i gave you.
I love you, because you know what I need.
I love you, because you scolded me at my wrongs.
I love you, because you will accompany me to where ever I wants to go.
I love you, because you supports me all the time.
I love you, because you will answer my call or reply my msgs no matter how.
I love you, because you hugged me tightly and I feel so comfortable.
I love you, because you said that we will die together.
I love you, because you made me turned to into one most blissful girl on earth!
I love you, because you protects me.
I love you, because you said that we will grow old together.
I love you, because you said we will work in the same place together.
I love you, because you think about our future.
I love you, because you are really one good guy!
I love you, because you are friendly.
I love you, because you are cute.
I love you, because you are my most precious thing ever.
I love you, because you will go crazy when i don't answer your calls or reply your msgs haha.
I love you, because you will curse the person I hate/dislike for me.
I love you, because you will not put me into trouble.
I love you, because you said you will marry me now.
I love you, because my hobby is to say I love you from the bottom of my heart to you everyday.

♥

XO!

Be back.

2011-03-30T12:49:00.002+08:00

ON HIATUS.

XO.

I'm different.

2011-03-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

I'm being really super sensitive. Yes, I'm one sensitive girl. I get jealous really easy and I cry over all small situation. I've never shown my strong character to you, I felt so useless.

I know what I need/must to do now. I've learnt something new, I'm going to change myself and I really hoped that I can success in changing! I need to think more positive than negative, it's nothing good/great about thinking negative ways, it's just only gonna lead us to some unnecessary fights! It is only going to waste our time mad at each other and cry.

Nobody loves to fight with their other half/loved ones right? Everyone of you all wants to live happily with your other half/loved ones. Don't fight over some small situation cause it's really unhealthy for all of us. Some people, gets jealous easily cause they too over caring and protective. I'm one of them. But now, I've realized being too over protective is just going to bring some fight in between us. Everyone needs their freedom, including me! Nobody loves being controlled too much. Nobody loves to hear a NO from their other half/loved ones. Everyone loves seeing their other half/loved one smiling all the time and not showing angry/sad faces to them. Nobody likes their other half/loved ones talking to them using crude voice, all they wanna heard from their other half/loved one is, one sweet soft voice asking them, "how are they doing today?" "have you taken your breakfast/lunch/dinner?" "Goodnight/morning!" "Saying I love you" and more. Most importantly, show your other half/loved ones that you are sporty, active, you take action first, and love trying out new stuffs with them.

Me, being such lousy girlfriend all the time. I controlled, I gets jealous super easily, I too over protective, I never stop saying NO to my love, I don't talk to him softly but using crude voice, I don't show happy face, I don't ask how is he doing at all and I ain't sporty at all. I know that he dislike it alot alot alot! I'm tried to change but I'm like FAILING ALREADY?! I need to stay strong and continue change to be something that he likes and loves! I know I can :) Yes I can, I really can!

Bie,

Thanks for correcting me all the time. Although I show you faces but, I put all your words into my heart. Sometimes, I just couldn't control. I love you!

XO SHIAN.

All i ever wanted is, you.

2011-02-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hi, I am back to blog again. Yes, like finally haha!

Okay, I'm having exams now. And it's killing me really badly. I just can sense that I'm gonna fail all my subjects including English :O why? Cause I think I wrote something too weird? :/ hahaha. Just, god bless me la! :)

Know, time pass real fast! Its gonna be March next week! and, our anniversary is on this coming Sunday :) I'm still straining my brain over what to give. I just wanna make something special but I don't have one creative brain :( the day is arriving like really soon and i'm still doing nothing now, what a good girlfriend i am haha. Okay la, I will figure something out soon hehe!

By the way, school was fine. sometimes! I'm still thinking how to confess about it infront of your damn face! I want you to know that i hate you very very really really much and I really do hope that you can just disappear infront of me. I don't know how or what I did till make you so love to annoys me in class. Do you know that you are really THAT annoying? I'm not just the one who complaining about you, there is more peoples. They just aren't showing it to you but I am! I am showing you that i seriously want to you go get the out of my sight. But you seem so blur? You seem like you can't see that I hates you. Stop trying to talk to me and come near me asshole! Get a life please. :)

Anyways, two more days of exam :D then i'll be skipping school like how I always did like last year :D just hope that during exams time will pass even more faster. I should really control myself and stop falling asleep while halfway doing the question paper :S alright, i'm gonna off now. Will be back in anytime (:

XO!

Rainy Moments.

2011-02-06T01:42:00.000+08:00

Why aren't we living happily?

I hate myself.

XO!

be what you are.

2011-02-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

It's like heaven when I'm with you.

I am back to blog again. It's 1208am now which means is the 3rd of cny :) oh well, i'm kinda emotional during this cny cause of boyfriend is not around plus the cny feel is like disappear already :( so yeah, i only watch tv and chit-chat with the cousins only. Thats why i do during this year's cny. One word to describe, BORING.

Boyfriend left to China on the first day of cny and i'm really missing him super duper much :( i'm like in some terrible hell without hearing his voice everyday :( i just still can't used to it when he is not around. All i know is to cry, cry and cry! I tried so hard to stay strong and keep myself busy but i just can't. On the first day of cny morning, I received 10 messages from boyfriend and i started to cry again! I just couldn't control my own tears, it dripped down by itself automatically and i really do blamed myself for falling asleep that night..

I wanna text you so badly but your phone got no international line so i couldn't text/call you. I've been wondering what you doing every single day! I'm kinda worry sometimes cause you are so noob at times :( but hey, you texted me :D i'm so happy when you texted me! God doesn't wants me to cry too hehe :)

SOOO, i guess that's all? :)

Anyways,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AGAIN EVERYONE! :)

XO!

Pissed.

2011-02-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

I'm so lost.

I fucking hate you to the fucking max tutorial. I'm serious! I really feel like murdering you right NOW ON THE FUCKING SPOT. You totally ruined my life like a piece of shit. My life was so great before meeting your fucking face.

On the very first day I see your fucking face, I started to dislike you. I never taught that you'll complain about me to my dad! I mean like, okay you can complain cause maybe i'm the one who did wrong something.. but now, you are the one who not teaching me properly okay! Don't put the blame on me saying that I did not pay attention or did not finish your damn homeworks. This is just an excuse to show that you are a good teacher. But in reality, you aren't a good teacher at all! You can even talked on the phone when you are halfway teaching me, is this what a GOOD teacher do?

And come one la, I don't like hearing all your rubbish histories okay. I'm here to learn, not listening to your rubbish. I know you have smart brains and I don't have la! I know you can be teacher very the proud of yourself. I know all your other students have smart brains and rich and I know I have lousy brain and not that rich laaa okay! You don't have to say,

"I give you special discount cause you are slow and your father is my friend but I see you learned nothing! My other students all pay alot, and they learned alot."

AND

"If you continue being like this, I think I would have to ask you to find another teacher."

HAHAHA. Your fucking retard sentence damn lame la okay. If you wanna blackmail me, please find another better sentence. Okay la, I know I damn slow in learning maths but at least i put effort in it. I did all your damn homeworks! I payed damn alot of attention in your class and I attend your class even when i'm sick. Please use your fucking brain to think la! Don't always blackmail me, it's not good for you cause you are just gonna get a punch and a bitchslap in your damn face :)

Oh and yes, I felt so sorry for knowing that you are still single when you are at the age of 40? HAHAHA. Find someone to love you instead of blackmailing me old witch! :) you are gonna be single forever if you don't stop your fucking retarded attitude. I'm not cursing you that you are gonna be single forever :) just telling you that you owns one terrible attitude which is, looking down on weak peoples. Get a life old witch.

p/s: Sorry to violent! I'm so freaking pissed. Mind me please :)

XO!

I love you more than anything.

2011-01-24T22:53:00.001+08:00

I love the way you be yourself

A couple fights. Fights happened in every relationship. If you are in a relationship without any arguements, that's weird la haha. There is this word, jealous in every relationship too! It shows how much you really cared about your the other half.

Every girl in this world will get jealous easily when their other half comparing them with other girls. Some girl can even cry.. Example, me!

"I'm just a girl with an attitude which makes my own boyfriend dislike it much! I'm just in my changing progress, it's not that I can't kick this attitude away. I tried so hard to stay cool whenever you compared me with other girls. I really really dislike it when you compare me with other girls. I don't know whats so good about HER. You always have been comparing me with her, this really hurts me."

I really wished that I could just stop getting jealous. I really wish I could, but I just realized that I couldn't do it! I really just couldn't stop myself from jealousing about you and other girls. Why? Why is it like this! I can see that you are suffering from my shit attitude. I will just prove it to you. I'm serious baby :)

I love you.

XO!

Will you?

2011-01-20T21:43:00.001+08:00

Does friends forever ever exist in this world?

I never taught that I will hate you this much! Cursing every single second, minute, hour and day. I am so tired of cursing and hating you. But I just couldn't stop myself! I don't know what's wrong with me but you started everything. You never think before you open your big damn mouth to talk! Well, although you did not say it out right infront of me but I heard it from other people's mouth. And I hate what you've said about me! I tried so hard to not care but I just realized that I couldn't.

I cried for a friend like, you. I wasted all my tears.

XO!

You are the one.

2011-01-15T01:30:00.003+08:00

I am glad that things was back to normal and how it used to be.
What's done is done. We've gotto look front and move on.
Never look back at the past cause it's not worthy.

I am yours now and you are mine, always and forever.

I love you, sweetheart!

XO!

Bittersweet.

2010-12-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm in the mood to blog now but I don't know what should I blog about. Hmm. Seriously, my mind is so blank now! :( so I think I shall just talk about today? Hah.

Woke up pretty late today. Got few missed calls from boyfriend but I didn't bother to call back cause I'm so tired. Then boyfriend came over around 1pm plus. Not long later, momma called home and say wanna go kl. So yeah, dressed myself up then headed to daddy's shop to pick mom! We reached KLCC around 330pm almost four cause it's so jam lol! It was super packed today :O we left KLCC around 8pm and reach dad's shop around 9pm cause it was really really super duper jam till I damn freaking 'pek cek' although I'm not the one driving LOL HAHA! And during that time, I need to pee so damn freaking badly hahahahaha.

It's Christmas Eve tomorrow yay! :D wonder what am I gonna get for this year's Christmas present hmm :P house gonna be so quiet when the four of us not at home haha! Parents finally can watch tv peacefully without us screaming here and there hehe! What should eat for Christmas dinner btw :D

Shitt! I gotto wake up so freaking early tomorrow to go Seremban with parents to get something then breakfast then back home and sleep heh! After my sleep, I'm heading out with the big baby boy. So I guess I have to sleep early tonight? But aiks, I can't sleep early D: I'm used to sleeping late already during holidays! How am I going to wake when school re-opens? D: I need so to fix my sleeping time!! I don't wanna be late for school like how I used to this year! :X

OHHEY. It's Christmas Eve already :D

XO!

In my head

2010-12-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

Roses from boyfriend.

What's up! I am back to blog again.

Cousin went home just now already :) oh well, I had fun with her these three days. Staying up late and have our own girls talk in room. Never failed to laugh with her, she always fill her pretty face with a beautiful smile. Sometimes, she's a lil bit too "anything" LOL. She can't decide things, she need everyone's opinion haha! But somehow, she's cute :D

Too short post haha! Need to go now :)

XO!

Everything.

2010-12-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

What is love actually? I kinda don't know what's the real meaning of love.

I fought with boyfriend over some small situation. I mean, I need to control myself. I need to change my attitude. But do you think I can? Cause I don't think I can do it. I suck in changing myself. I suck in being your girlfriend. But I tried my very best to change already, end up? I failed! Yes, failed. I'm a total failure.

I always put boyfriend at the first place in my heart but I think he can't see that? Maybe I'm treating my friends better than him? Yes, I can feel that too. I always say a 'yes' to my friends but a 'no' to you. I know it's really unfair for you. But I really feel like telling you what I want to tell. Problem is I just don't dare to face you and tell! I don't know why am I so useless. I could have told you, since we are always on the phone at night.. but I just got no guts. I only dare to say everything through message but I know you hate it. You want to hear it from my own mouth. I know it.

I want to say,

" I have always been trusting you. Since the day we started to talk on the phone everyday, I already putted tons of trust in you. I can feel that you are the one I have been always needed. You are the one who understands me. You are the one who knows what I always wanted. You are the one who can only put me into sleep when I'm having terrible sleepless nights. And, I think you are wondering, how you put me into sleep right :) you don't have to read me any bedtime stories or sing a song for me or whatever. I just need your voice. Even your 'hello and bye' can kick my terrible sleepless nights away from me.

Meeting you is the bestest thing in my life! I've never met a perfect guy like you. I know you will say that you aren't perfect at all. But for me, you are totally 100% perfect! You are all I need! I don't need your presents. I just need your care and love. I know you thinks the same too? All you need is my care and love right? All you need is I being honest to you. All you need is I be there for you whenever you need me.

I'm sorry that I've failed your wishes. "

The god have been treating real well. I did so many things that you dislike it. You still staying right beside me not moving. You gave me chances to change. I will appreciate every chances you gave. My bestest dream came true!

Baby, I love you.

XO!

By my side.

2010-12-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

I am back to blog again! :)

Am currently at grandma's place now. I'm staying over here for few days or maybe one whole week? Well, I got some freedom here cause I know my aunts and grandma won't nag me like how my mum did. But still, I've gotten used to it already so yeah :) even if my mum nags me, I still likes it :D heh! The only thing I feel that grandma's place is great that is, sleeping over with my cousin! :D I and cousin watch tv whole night, wake really late and got nagged by grandma for few seconds haha!

Have been sleeping real late during this holidays! My eyebags are so ugly already and I don't know how get rid of it :( I just couldn't go to bed early. What is wrong with me men! :@ oh btw, watched hongkong drama with cousin every night before stepping into our dreams. And yes, both of us currently sleeping at cousin brother's room since he went back to Seremban already :) his room's aircond is super nice and cold woooow! But the tv inside the room is one huge distractions :( it causes us sleep and wake up late.

I've been rotting alone at here for one day. And I kinda like can't stand it anymore. I wanna go out shopping with boyfriend but sadly I can't :( I shouldn't have promised my grandma that I will come back and stay. Nevermind, it's not that bad also la actually :) at least I can spend more time with my cousins! :)

Alright, holidays like ending really soon. Which means, it's gonna be the end of 2010 already. Time passes so goddamn fast! I don't know what am I gonna be on 2011 hahaha! Hopefully my attitude can change a lil bit? Hah! Same time, I hope that my life would be better :) I mean like, at least better than this year? Less fights with boyfriend, more sweet time with boyfriend, no more friendship problem, no any retard sickness and so on.

Most happiest day in 2010 is, 27th June! :)

How I wished that every year, month's 27th June will be one happy, sweet day :) ooooh, Christmas is coming soon :D so do our anniversary baby :)

I shall go now, ciaaao!

XO!

Corner love.

2010-12-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hey world! I'm back to blog again :) sorry for neglecting you again, dear blog hah! Have been really busy and lazy to update my blog. Cause, you know, i'm busy la! Hahaha. By the way, Happy December world! :D

Well, my birthday just past not-so-long-ago! Enjoyed my early celebration with family and friends @ bubba gump on the 30th nov tuesday night :) I'd like to thanks my friends that who came and celebrate with me even though some of you don't know each other. Haha! Most of all, thanks my brother for everything on that night! I guess this year's early celebration is better than last year? :) Anyways, my boyfriend celebrated with me on the actual day :D he brought me to some western restaurant that sell pork chop? LOL HAHA! My dish ain't that nice. Should have order chicken instead of pork hahaha! I love the cake that made by him but sadly he brought it back home :( and I guess, he finished the whole cake? Hahaha! The cake is so pretty and cute hehehe! And I love your present most! <3

What a birthday haha! :)

School is like around the corner? I'm so jealous of those spm students that just finish their exams! :( they can fly like free bird nooww! No more tuitions for them :( but I've gotto suffer from don't know how many subjects of tuition next year omg :( I dislike high school life with tuitions! :( how I wished that I was borned to owns one smart brain :( so that I don't have to go for tuition class or what but I know that no one's perfect in this world la :) hmm, I think I shall be more hardworking next year to get good results for spm!

Oooh and, Christmas is coming to us soon! :D hope my this year Christmas would be better? :) hehehe.

I need to go now ciaaaaaaaaaaaao!

If it's love.

2010-11-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

HAII. I love my header and thanks to Vivien! :D

How's life everyone :) sorry for abandoning u again dear blog! :( have been really busy this few weeks. Actually, ain't really busy la :P I'm just lazy to update my blog teeeheee! Well, many things happened and i won't be mentioning any about it. It's nothing good to share it with the world.

Anyways, it's 27th of the month again today!! Means, it's

Jun Shen and Shu Shian day! :D

It's our 5th month anni today :) we went out to Pav to shop today and were supposed to watch movie! Sadly, I woke up late and there is no more time for us to watch so yeah, walked around only :) we had our dinner at Restaurant Wong Kok! After dinner walked around for a little while then head home :)

I'm happy that we can actually last till 5months! We've been fighting for so many times and nothing bad happened to the two of us. You know, god put us both together cause god knows that we will love each other forever and ever. God knows that you want me and I want you! God let u appear infront of me when I was about to lose trust in guys and It let me appear infront of you when you're really sad. Is this, the so called faith? :)

I love you!

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By the way, I'm back from Taiwan and I did not enjoy at all :( I got flight dizziness and it's really killing me :'( and the wind is really strong. We can barely walk! Me and cousin sleep real late cause there's tons of drama for the both of us to watch :D all those dramas real funny, both of us just couldn't stop laughing HAHAHAHA!

Alright, will update my blog soon again la! :)

XO!

What about now.

2010-11-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

You are always on the top of my heart.

HELLO. Sorry for abandoning my blog again hahaha! I'm back now to safe my dear bloooog! Yeay me :D I have nothing to blog about now sigh :( anyone please give me some idea on what should I blog about now :/ I skipped school for so many days already & hopefully I won't get any warning letter from school hahahahaha. By the way, I would loved to apologize to Nafiz that I didn't go school on the 9th Nov as I promised you that I will go. I'm too lazy so yeah hehehe. Don't angry kay! :)

Anyways, I guess I'm returning those textbooks next year since school holidays is starting really real soon teehee. Wonder what should I do during December holidays! Hmm, outing with friends everyday? Or to grandma's place and holiday with cousins? :D BUT OH SHIT. I just remembered that my maths tuition teacher say she wants me to start back class during december holidays UGGGH. Why can't I start studying form 5 next year? :'( I wanna enjoy my holidays la please :'(

Besides that, I'm leaving to Taiwan tomorrow early morning! :( I'm going to miss my baby shen like crazy :'( five days without his voice is like... I don't know how to explain but it will lead me to death la! :( and I'm wondering what baby shen will do when I'm not around :( hopefully I won't cry on the plane and hopefully I won't cry myself to sleep everyday eventho I have my precious cousin beside me :/

Alright, I guess Im'ma stop here :) will update more after I'm back from Taiwan! :D

Nights.

XO!

FINALS.

2010-10-17T18:00:00.001+08:00

Finals starts tomorrow! :)

Good Luck to all! :D

XO!

I can fix your broken heart.

2010-10-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

I'm one useless girlfriend, I know. I'm sorry that I've been hurting non-stop. I'm not blamming you on anything. I'm just blamming myself for not being one good/useful girlfriend that won't hurt you.

Baby,

I know sometimes, I'm weird. I mean, I go mad at you for no any good reasons. I mad at you just because I want you to be with me all the time and all. I know I'm acting like one 3-4year old kid. But seriously, I want/need more of your care. I want you to be with me all the time. To be real honest, I kinda dislike you going gym at night sometimes. I don't know why but, I don't feel good :( and that's why I started to ask you whether you're going to gym or not all the time. Did you realize that? :) but of course, I won't stop you from going to gym at night. It's your freedom, as long as you are happy! ♥

Besides that,

I'm sorry that I've been hurting you again and again non-stop. I know I shouldn't think of him, but I'm just missing him as one long-lost best friend. But I swear that, I will stop thinking of him from this second onwards. I'm afraid that I will break your promises but I will try not to! I will keep all those promises and I will make it happen.

One thing that you have to get clear is, I did not like him anymore! You are the only one in my heart now and I told you before right? My heart is really tiny and small! It only can fit one person and I'm pretty sure that its you only! :) nobody can ever replace you in my heart. You are my everything and you know that you are very important to me! :)

I will not let go easily cause I know I can hold on tight without falling. I know we can last. I know we can go through a lots of things together in the future. I know I will stand by your side forever and you will be standing on my side forever too right? And of course, I know that I will be yours forever :) ♥

Lastly, I really would loved to apologize. I ain't brave enough to tell you face to face or on the phone. I'll just spill it all out here and wishing that you will be reading. :)

Baby, I'm sorry for hurting you over and over again. I never wanted all these to happen. I want us to stay happy and sweet like how we used to. I know we can be like that again right :) I trust you with all my life but you must hold me up, and don't ever drop me! Even if you want to drop me down, I will still hold on tight on you never let go. I'm serious. I'm not here to say all these to make you happy or what! I'm spilling everything out that I kept deep down in my heart. :)

I love you.

XO!

Just a dream.

2010-09-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

Hi, sorry for abandoning my blog over & over again although I've promised that I won't hahaha!

Well, time flies real fast! :( two weeks of holidays ending real real soon & finals are around the corner! I haven't start studying & I don't know how am I going to pass my finals :( I'm so so so doom-ed right now! UGH.

Planned to stay over at grandma's place for one week but it failed badly! I have to go tuition on Mon & Thurs. But teacher gave me replacement on Tues last week cause she say she doesn't wanna give me any tuition during the final week wtf?! -.- & plus she say she's going overseas during my finals too :O omg! Who the hell is going to help me with my maths when she's away? I can't fail my maths :( sigh. I'm so stressed out already la :( just wish the finals will be over in just a blink of eye :D hehehe.

Anyways, last Friday was one holiday. Daddy dragged me out of my bed. I can barely open my eyes cause I'm really really tired! I spend my whole night talking on the phone with boyfriend hahaha! After washing&dressing up, headed out to Bangsar Village cause 2nd brother is working over there as a Art Teacher. After dropping him, I & my parents headed to the Gardens for bfast :D walked around till noon then headed home. I've spend my whole afternoon sleeping like some super dead pig. Daddy woke me up around 630pm, picked 2nd brother up then headed to PJ for dinner :D

Saturday, hmm went out with Aloy since I've nothing to do at home! Had fun joking around with him too hahahaha! Parents picked me up around 7pm then headed to Klang for dinner together with 2nd & 3rd brother :) we waited for the food to be served for 2 hours cause there's really full of humans :S 2nd brother got a lil bit pissed with their services hahaha! Went home around err, 1130pm.

Sunday, usual stuffs. Bfast with family then afternoon to grandma's place! :)

Ohyess, went Pyramid with the loved ones yesterday! Will update about it soon la :P

I miss my boyfriend!

XO!

I need you, always.

2010-09-09T02:29:00.001+08:00

My life went great after being with you, darling. We got together for almost three month already & I really appreciate what you've done for me. You got me what I wanted or wished to have. You always full fill all my needs!

To be honest, at the beginning, I thinks that you choosed me as your girlf is one super big mistake! Cause there's people around you flirting with you & all which causes all those unwanted fights we had. I seriously taught of breaking up with you since there's so much annoying peoples out there who won't stop bothering you, can't stop giving comments blablabla & more. But, I changed my mind in the end.. I finally decided to not let you go. I shouldn't let you go just because of those rubbish that I saw or heard. I should trust you with all my heart & not suspecting you. I shouldn't have think negatively too.

I know I'm one super sensitive girlfriend. I've been jealousing over some small situation all the time. I've tried my very best to not being jealous but I've failed badly. & in the same time, I know I'm kinda useless too. I don't really know what you actually wanted. I don't know how to care about your feelings. I've been caring for myself all the time & totally made you felt left out.

Know what, I really do feel like slapping those girls who won't stop flirting with you! I strongly dislike them but of course, I won't stop you from hanging out, or whatever with them. Cause you owns your own freedom too! I won't be controlling you that much like before anymore. I know you dislike it, so yeah.. you can do whatever you want as long as your heart & my heart stick together & never separate. Thats enough for me.

& yes, there's many humans out there with tons of question marks on their mind.. tons of humans have been asking me different question which really annoys me. They asked,

"Shian, you think you can live forever with your current boyfriend which 22years old? I don't think you can hold on til forever. I thinks that you'll give up in the end and hurt his feelings."
"Shian, why do you wanna choose one boyfriend which older than 6years? 22year old people's mind aren't that simple!"
"Shian, I advice you to break up with your 22year old boyf & get one which is same age with you. I think its better for you."
"Shian, I'm afraid that you'll get hurt!"
"Shian, think twice! You still got chance to dump him la."
....... & more rubbish!

I will not care what you all say. And conclusion is, I love my boyfriend with all my heart & I will not break his little heart by listening to all of you all's nasty comments. It will not affect me no matter how. So yeah, don't have to try to make me end this relationship with him. It will never happen till the day I die! :)

I love you, baby.

Thats all. Bye! :)

XO!

today was a fairytale.

2010-08-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hello world! I'm back to blog again hahahaha! Im'ma gonna abandon it again after updating this :D well, supposed to update about all those outings I had with my friends but sorry, I'm too lazy to resize/upload pictures & also lazy to detail everything hehehe! So do stalk my facebook for pictures :D hahaha!

Hmm, I stayed at home the whole day & Im'ma gonna die really really soon! Mum stayed at home the whole day too so I've got no chance to go out cause I've been out for many days already. :( sigh! Oh well, supposed to go Angel's place today but plan failed hahahaha! So see you on monday la ok Si Fei Niu :P

So, yesterday was my 2nd month anni heheheh! Went out with bby in the afternoon then had Bubba Gump for dinner @ sunway :) he dropped me home after dinner. Had a great day with him too :) hehehehe! Night, mum called & scolded me -.- she taught I wasn't home yet but actually I'm already onlining in my room! UGH. Got scolded for no freaking good reason, rawr! & yes, I slept quite early yesterday too :D but woke up in the middle of the night & called bby :)

Anyways, most probably heaading back to grandma's place tomorrow! :) & maybe skipping school on monday? :) yes. Maybe :D

XO!

From the bottom of my heart.

2010-08-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Thinking back, & felt so stupid for doing those unwanted stuffs just to make you come back to me. I've wasted so much time on someone that I doesn't love at all & sacrificed everything that I wasn't supposed to. You totally ruined my life & I ain't blamming anything on you. I should just blame myself cause I'm just too naive that time & I don't know what am I thinking. Regreted.

But anyway. I should thank the god too :) It gave me one super precious present that brightens up my life.

This guy, appeared infront of me when I was about to lose all the trust in guys. His appearance makes me wanna give up on losing trust in guys plan! He made me fall deeply in love with him & I guess its gonna be super hard for me to give up? Hahahaha! & I never wanna give up on him too! :)

Well, I never taught I'm gonna be with him & its gonna be the 2nd month already. I'm really really happy when I'm with him & I found the real me too :) I'm not the old unhappy me anymore! I'm finally showing my real real smile to world & aren't faking it anymore. Yeaaaaaaaaaay! :D

I wanna let the worlds know that, I did not regret for being with you although we quarrel-ed sometimes. & most of the time its my problem. & yes, I just wanna let you know that you're important to me & I did not wished to lose you :) I will change my idiot attitude which makes you mad sometimes. & I do loved to promised you that I won't go mad over some small situations anymore. Give me some times & chances to prove that I can really change my nasty attitude, baby. :)

Appreciated this awesome gift. :)

I love you! Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

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& of course. Not to forget my baby(s) :) hehehehe! I don't need her & her. They are enough for me :) they are my true best friends & they are really trustworthy. Losing you as a friend is one good thing too :) don't have to hear you saying that you're awesome which is not at all -.- is darn annoying. You should know that, you aren't awesome at all. ( not saying that I'm awesome too )

Munny!

Twin!

Chuen, Shin & Angel.

Mei.

Thanks for being with me whenever I needed you guys. Thanks for supporting me all the way too. You guys rocks! HEHEHEHEHEHE! <3

I can find my real happiness in all of you. <3 :)

XO!

better in time.

2010-08-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

You've changed. You aren't the old friendly/kind/trust worthy you anymore.

After all these, I just realized that boyfriend & family treated me the best. Friends? Some only lor. I don't understand, why do you wanna do this to me? I taught we promised to keep each other's secrets? Well, that aren't really a secret. But you've promised me that you won't spread it out. You lied. I've regret for not trusting people out there saying that you always backstab friends. I taught it was just some rumours, but I was wrong. It is true. I've trusted the wrong person. This is the biggest mistake I've done in my whole freaking life! Trusting one backstabber? If you can't keep any secrets, then don't promised that you'll keep it. I never expected that you'll be that cruel. Ignore all of us & pretending that you don't even know us? Not bad eh :) hahahaha. Hmm well, go on & continue :D

I doesn't wanna talk much about what happened cause it gonna make me cry. So yeah, I choosed to forget.

- maybe we really don't deserve to be friends with you cause you're too smart to backstab friends :)

Hopefully I don't make any same mistakes anymore? :) I don't need a friend like you anymore I guess you wouldn't want to be friends with a childish person right? :) I've just gotto let go a friend like you. I'm afraid that you'll spill more & more secrets out. To tell you the truth, I miss you.

Oh well. Eventho I know I've lose a friend. But still have my boyfriend, family &a few trustworthy friends with me :)

I never shared any problems with family cause I really doesn't wants them to worried about me. But well, eventho they don't know what's happening to me. But I think they can see from my face's expression? :) hahahaha! My brothers is here to make me laugh all the time, they always tried to search for some lame, funny jokes for me. Although we fought sometimes, but after a few mins, we started to insult each other hahahahahaha!

I totally got no idea what am I without them with me. :)

Boyfriend is always the great ones too. Why? Hahaha! He's here with me anytime, anywhere when I needed him. He never abandon me no matter what. He tried all his best to cheer me up eventho he know he failed. But at least, he made me smile in the end? Hahaha! I'm one really lucky girl. I'm happy to have him in my life I never wanted him to leave me. He will answer my calls no matter what. Eventho he's asleep like a pig in the middle of the night already, he'll still wake up answer my call, then he'll say, 'noo, I'm not asleep yet.' hahahahaha. AT FIRST, I thinks that boyfriend doesn't really cares about me but I'm totally wrong :)

He never let me down. I love you, boyfriend. :)

& yes, boyfriend is right :) I still have, Angel, Yuen Mei, Ming Chuen, Yune Shin, Sher Mun, Twin & more with me. :) I don't have to cry for these unworthy humans. I've wasted tons of tears on them wtf hahahahaha!

Nevermind, it's over & its past tense already la :D

XO!

Just shout whenever and I'll be there! :D

2010-07-27T16:02:00.001+08:00

OOH HAI! :) I know my blog's dead la! So now, I'm here to save it hehehehe! Well actually, I'm here to update cause of my current Husband, Ho Megan only lor! She wants me to update my blog so badly but I'm just too lazy! So since I've nothing to do now, let me share something new with you guys! :D

So, I met this girl (Ho Megan) two years ago! And we aren't close at all! Till this year, we suddenly got so so so close :D we shared all our secrets blablabla together and we text all the time too :) never failed to smile with all her random text. :)

THEN,

On the 24th Of July 2010, which is a Saturday night! :)

I got married to Ho Megan aka Megan Ho Wei Hau! Hahahahaha :D she's now officially my hubby! :) I love her super doooper much but I felt bad for not replying her text all the time :( so sorry hubby! I love you, hubby! :D bwahahahahaha!

Our theme song, Baby by Justin Bieber :)

DONE! :D hehehe

XO!

One last dance.

2010-07-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

HI I AM BACK TO BLOG AGAIN! :D

Sorry for leaving my precious blog dead, like this. I'm so so so lazy to update it :/ plus I don't know what to update. Hmmm. Might be deleting this boring blog soon? But just hope that after deleting this blog, I won't miss blogging anymore and won't create another new ones :) hahahaha!

Anyways, school was fine lately. Nothing much happened. And yes, Puan Mardalina *our science teacher* is back to us again :D I'm happy to have her back although she's kinda fierce at times! Well, its better the replacement teacher LOL :/ I learned nothing from her cause I didn't even pay attention to her during class plus her voice is like, super soft :/ gonna go for science tuition for sure! :D

Besides that, am really really happy knowing that I got 70% for maths this mid-term exam! I just really couldn't believe my damn eyes men! Hahahaha! I can't stop telling my parents that I got 70% for maths. And they really happy for me too. :) a big big thanks to daddy who get me such awesome math tuition teacher although I hated her at TIMES hehehehe :) I really learned a lot. Unlike last year :) I don't even bother about all my studies. Now, I've regretted for not studying hard since form 1. Let's just hope that I can do well in next week's monthly test :) PRAY HARD FOR ME PLEASE :')

Skipped tuition yesterday due to the super bad mood plus sick D: slept super early yesterday and woke up around 230am :O slept back around 510am and woke up around 655am. I can't believe that I can still study in school hahaha :D am so so proud of myself :P cheyy! Supposed to do my oral test today but kinda like, ran out of time? So confirm gonna do it on Thurs! D: I gotto go prepare and start memorizing :( I hate memorizing passages! Rawr!

I'm gonna come back to update more often :D hehehe!

p/s : Should I attend Band Concert this Saturday to support my dearest See Yeng? :/ hmmmm.

Toodles!

XO!

I don't love you?

2010-07-12T15:31:00.000+08:00

Baby, tell me what you waitin' for?

HELLO. Sorry for abandoning my blog, once again :/ been really busy lately. I've got no time to update one proper one! D: so I guess, this gonna be one short one before I start on my projects :/ Well, I gotto apologize to Suet Yee that I couldn't update bout the day I and Chuen hung-ed out. I'm just too lazy! Heh!

Hmm, I guess that's all?

Cyouuu peoples! :)

XO!

Mirror Mirror.

2010-07-05T20:45:00.001+08:00

MAD TIRED.

It's Monday today. Means, I went to school in the morning and then tuition in the afternoon. Wtf haha I'm just being lame over here. Anyways, school's fine today! Nothing much special happened in school today. As usual, laughed out loud with the bfriends. And yes, as usual too, no teachers during Sci and Maths period :/ how the hell am I gonna take August's test? D:

By the way, tuition's fine too :)

Let me update something about yesterday, the day before yesterday blablabla :D

Sunday

Woke up pretty early, skipped dhamma class. Got myself ready, brunch with Jun and Brother at home which prepared by grandmama! :) after brunch, picked Vivi up then headed out to Pavi. Walked around like how other humans did LOL. (just being lame by the way HAHA) and yes, we decided to catch a movie :) supposed to watch Tripple Tap but its full already so we watched The Legend Is Born, Ip Man. Hmm I rate 6/10 cause it's kinda boring :/

After movie, walked around aimlessly then headed to PJ for supper. Came home around 1130pm plusplus! :) what A tiring day D:

Saturday

Hmmm, woke up pretty early too. Got ready and Jun Shen picked me up then headed to OU. Didn't planned to watch movie tho, last min plan :D haha! We watched Knight and Day and I rate 8/10. It's one awesome show but still I fell asleep cause I'm too tired so yeah. :) hahaha! Oooh and, met up with Vivi before the movie starts cause she was alone that time. So called "lunch" at Old Town before movie too haha!

After movie, left OU. Reached home bath, packed and headed to Sunway for gym :D supper at usj9 Murni after gym :) JS slept over that night. One tiring day too.

Friday

Skipped school for some "reason" :P hahaha! Woke up superb early and thanks to Ming Chuen! She woke me up around 830am plus :O and said that she's right outside my house! Let her in, bath and wait for Angel to call. But end up only, I and Chuen cause Angel sudd can't go out due to some sudden sit :/ I and Chuen had our bfast at KFC, we ate porridge. Not yummy at all D: after that, went to Pizza Uno for another round :) heheheheh! We walked back home afterthat and started our camwhore session :) heheheh!

She left around 4pm and Jun Shen dropped by. He left around 7pm cause I gotto attend Aunt's new restaurant grand opening dinner at usj19. Bathed, waited for brother and headed out. I did not enjoy that night at all cause it was superb warm there and the apartment there were super scary :S I don't know why, my cousin ain't afraid of darkness and she's only err.. standard 3? :O AND AND, bumped into Nicole and sister over there :D hahahaha!

Uncle dropped us (I and Grandma) home cause brother did not join us. He just dropped us there and he went off. We reached home around, 11pm plus. Bathed onlined then to bed :D heeee. ONE SUPER DOOPER TIRING DAY! :(

p/s: pictures will be uploaded soon! :)

Anyways, I just realised that.. I was out for three days straight and everyday's one tiring day! Haha :) hopefully parents won't kill me after knowing I'm out three days straight when they weren't around. Ooh and yes, parents reached M'sia already! :D will be back soon woooohooo!

Gonna off now! ;)

XO!

Back at one.

2010-07-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

My beloved brothers! :)

HI. I'm back again bwahahaha :D I'm kinda addicted to blog right now :O I don't know why but, I can't stop updating my blog :S maybe cause of my blogskin is too cute? HAHAHA *kidding* :P but seriously la, big big big huge huge thanks to Vivien :D I owe you men. Haha! I wanna delete my blog so badly last time but now, I don't feel like it anymore! :D weeeee. Hehehe!

So anyways, school's fine today. Nothing much happened. Had fun with the usual bfriends in class :) oh by the way, great laugh with Seng and Gengkee during English relief period :D hahahaha! They seriously have tons of jokes! ALL kind of jokes, wtf hahahaha! After Gengkee left our class, sat back my own place cause its add maths period. Well, Mei and Angel told me some funny and lame jokes too :D hahahaha!

Skipping school tomorrow and parents leaving to China 5AM in the morning :O so freakish early, I wanna follow them to the airport but they say, they'll take cab instead of asking brother to drop them there. Hmm so means I don't have the chance to be at airport early in the morning at 5am :( anyhooo, the childrens gonna rock the house yo! HAHAHA :D

Gonna have bfast with the loved ones tomorrow morning and I can't wait! :)

Gonna go now! Cyouuuuu.

XO!

Happy Birthday Rose!

2010-07-01T20:22:00.001+08:00

Haaaai, today's 1st July :D which means, is my favourite Rosemund's big big day! :D hahaha!

She's one awesome friend, I must say. She's one really friendly girl and I know she loves to smile, alot :) nothing can bring her down cause she's really strong! She's here for me whenever I needed her. We shared each other's secrets last time, but cause of our's busyness.. we hardly contact, see each other like how we used to. We used to have skating class together but, its kinda hard when you take semi-private class. :/

After separating classes, we don't really contact each other anymore but still, she's always my favourite ones! Mwah I love you :) well anyways, I'm happy owns a friend like you, Rose! Thanks for everything you've done for me. And sorry for those misunderstanding thoughts, and fights! ♥

Happy Rosemund's Day!

I love you a whole lot. :)

♥♥♥

XO!

Kiss goodbye.

2010-06-30T18:17:00.000+08:00

Love, it comes and go without any sign.

School's fine today. Nothing much happened. So many teachers were absent! We didn't even study, all we do in class is, chit-chat, sleep and blablabla! I wanna skip school tomorrow but I can't :/ I needa go school and ask friends to help with my maths tuition work tomorrow cause I don't wanna get any bad comments from teacher :( well, gonna skip on Friday :D yeay!

Oh by the way, changed my blogskin and big thanks to Vivien Low for helping me edit some :D hahaha! I love it sooo much, especially the cute and chio header :D hehehehe!

Anyways, did not sleep well yesterday night due to some terribly bad dreams :( I really really gotto stop thinking negative ways! All these bad dreams are driving me mad and crazy. I can't concentrate in everything. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me now but, I know I'm sick. I taught everything's gonna be okay. But no, I was wrong. Nothing's okay! Everything's so wrong right now and I don't know how to handle it all by myself. All these problems around me, is making me really really dead sick! I shall just leave it and ignore. Yeah, maybe I should do that :)

Just hope that I'll feel better after he's home? :)

XO!

Raining day.

2010-06-29T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm dying now :( seriously! Why am I feeling down nowadays? I don't feel like talking to anyone at all :( I just wanna sit down alone without anyone bugging me and stuffs. But when I'm alone, I start thinking something negative which make my tears roll down slowly. I dislike crying a lot! I don't wanna cry like how I used to last time. I wanna be strong like other humans out there, but I failed terribly! I never be strong. I'm weak as always and forever.

Sometimes, I felt so useless cause I can't even cheer one of my friend up! I can do nothing without any mistakes! I wanna stop thinking negative ways. It makes me sick! I don't want all those bad dreams come true. I want it to "poof" and gone forever! I want the old happy me back, not the new emo/sad me. I miss myself showing real smile to the world! I wanna show my real smile, I don't wanna fake it anymore! I wanna stop pretending cause its really suffering. I've been pretending all the time infront of all my best friends! When can I stop pretending? Sigh.

I can't sleep well every single night. Woke up by bad dreams with tears in midnight. :(

Anyways, school's fine today. Did not really study as almost all the teachers were absent :O chit-chatted with the usual ones in class today and had a oh-so-great-day. And, I slept the whole freaking awesome afternoon today.

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I miss you, like always.

XO!

I know you won't.

2010-06-28T19:24:00.000+08:00

Hi, I know I've promised that I'll update few days ago. But I forgotten so yeah :D I'm here naoo! :) I will update one real proper one soon! Sorry readers :( but anyhow, I'll update about Rosemund's 19th Pink Birthday Bash Night. :) stay tuned for that yaww hahahaha! :D

Anyways, school wasn't fine for me today. I mean, like seriously :( terrible tummy ache in the morning then headache D: can't even sleep in class cause teachers can't stop waking me up :( it makes me even sicker menn. Wanted to sleep in class during recess but, prefects won't allow me to. :( so I went down to the canteen and ate nuggets :D hahaha! After recess, tummy ache again! Wtf right? :( so I sleep during Science class since Science teacher wasn't around. Angel and the others woke me up right after Accounts teacher stepped into class D: I've got not enough sleep laah! But luckily, I kinda like, still can cope with teacher and did not show my super blur face :D hahaha!

Well, am superb happy once I heard the 'school dimissed' bell rang! :D who doesn't anyways! Hahaha. So, 2nd brother picked me up on time and I don't have to wait like.. 40minutes? -.- reached home, straight to my precious bed and sleep the whole afternoon with my uniform on. Haha! Oh by the way, skipped tuition today! Woke up around 430ish, shower then had my yummy dinner cooked by my grandmama! :)

After dinner, planned to finish my econs notes since there's econs period tomorrow. But it failed badly! So I guess, I'll finish it a lil bit later? Haha! Gonna be another boring day in school tomorrow! Sigh :( time please fly faster during school and tuition time. Please please please :(

Alright, I guess that's all for today? :)

XO!

I meant, I love you.

2010-06-26T20:44:00.001+08:00

Hi, will update later! :)

XO!

Never say never.

2010-06-23T17:29:00.001+08:00

School wasn't that bad today too. Every single subject's fine for me except for accounts! :( account's killing me badly! I don't understand a thing about accounts. I always wanted to sleep during accounts class but I endup paying attention to teacher. Still, I don't understand A thing! :( wtf right! Oh well, not just accounts lah! Add math's worse :O

I don't wanna talk about studies first! Cause exam's still not here :D hahaha!

SO, Hello everybody :D

Mood swing nowadays! Am not really in the mood today. But I'm faking my bloody smile to the world :( I'm so tired of faking smile and all. When can I show my real smile to the world? :( I missed the old happy me! I hate the new emo me! Can anyone help me and turn me back into the old happy me? Sigh.

Sometimes, I really thinks that the God treated me badly. Yeah, maybe I were borned to be treated this way? I seriously hate the feeling of when, people blamming things on me, got scolding for no farking good reason and more. All these bullshits sucks! It won't go away from me till the day I die, I prehaps? I was supposed to born with happy life! Not like now. I think the God accidentally switched my life with some other humans in the world :O thats why I have to suffer with all these right now.

I'm so tired of all these already. Sigh.

Going off now!

XO!

I need somebody.

2010-06-22T17:46:00.001+08:00

HELLLLO! I changed my blogskin again. :) haha!

My blog looks dead? :O I'm here to keep it alive yooooo haha! :D so, school starts back yesterday and this sucks! :( I don't wanna wake up early morning and go school with some super blur look on my face :( ooh well, my first day back to school after 2 weeks of holidays considered greaaaat! :D haha! All thanks to, Yuen Mei, Angel and others ;) they brighten up my dark sky with their super lame and funny jokes! :) ♥

I had tuition yesterday afternoon and it was fine too :D did not get any bad complaints from teacher and I think I'm getting better? Bwahahaha! After tuition, went home and straight to my precious bed :D I sleep till around 9pm, woke up and continue with my parent's London trip pictures! I've gotto help them resize 300++ over pictures and it's super tiring :( anyways, I've uploaded it all in their account :D hopefully they stop bugging me about those pictures anymore :S

Anyways, school's such a bore today. No teacher for five period straight! Wasted tons of time day dreaming in class with the usuals one. I tried to sleep in class but, I failed terribly. I only slept for few mins :( but still I had fun laughing/joking around with them in class :) haha! ♥

Btw, got back few of my examination papers! :( failed many many subjects and am superb doooom-ed right now! RAWR. How I wish teachers could just stop giving out those examination papers :( but, I desperately need my maths paper. Sadly, teacher's not around now :O aahhh! :(

Sigh. Im'ma gonna get going right now! :)

Stay tuned yaaww! :D

XO!

Airplanes.

2010-06-19T23:25:00.001+08:00

Im'ma happy girl, I swear :)

Hi everyone! I'm sooooo in the mood to blog nowadays! Haha. Am superb happy nowadays too! I don't emo like how I used to last time :) proud of me eh? :P hmmm, school's starting back soon means, more tuitions! D: mummy got me Sci and BM teacher and start tuition next week omg! :O I don't wanna go so many tuitions :( I want more and more and more holidays! :( 2 weeks aren't enough for me. Sigh! How I wish that I could control the time and let it pass slooooowly!

By the way, went Pyramid with friend today. I lost my shopping mood cause I ain't feeling well :( hmmm, I've alot to update but, I'm sooo lazy now altho I've the blogging mood right now! I think I'll come back later? Haha!

Cyoouuu!

XO!

Can't smile without you.

2010-06-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

They are awesome :)

Sorry for abandoning you my dear blog.

Two weeeks of holiday! And it sucks badly :( sigh. Parents just came home from London yesterday and yes am superb happy cause of receiving tons of presents :D hahaha! Alright, so my activity for last week!

Thursday - Over slept, so skipped tuition. Went out with Von, Yin, Nicole and the others @ pyramid. Supposed to join them for movie but I'm afraid that I've got no transport home. So yeah :)

Friday - Stay at the home the whole afternoon, gym at night then supper at Mcd with Brother and Vivi. Oh and bumped into Mel, Edwin and Debbie there :D hahaha!

Saturday - Went out to Sunway with Jun Shen. Gym at night then supper at somewhere in the world LOL!

Sunday - Went out with Jun Shen to Sunway again. Dinner at BBQ Plaza with him, brother and Vivienne. Then supper at err, I forgotten :O

Monday - Tuition in the morning then to saloon :) straighten my hair :D

Tuesday - Supposed to go Sunway with Jun Shen but endup to OU :)

Wednesday (today) - Pyramid with Jun Shen again! Supposed to skate tho, but wasn't feeling well. So yeah, came home and sleep till parents back from work! :)

That's what I did during my hols! Boring much? Hahaha!

Gonna off nao ;) stay tuned yooo!

XO!

Anonymous Friend.

2010-06-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

Never taught that I'd fall for you.

Hello. I have the urge to blog right now! :D

Parents just left the house leaving to London soon and I know I'm gonna miss them? Haha! Well, stayed at home the whole day today and online :/ nothing better to do and feel so lifeless. I've complete all my maths homework and there's nothing much to worry about :D haha! Hopefully I don't get any bad comments tomorrow from teacher :(

Anyways, I wanna go outing with Ee Von and others tomorrow but I don't think I can :( parents not around, I don't think I can step out from the house without brother with me :( rawr! So, most probaly am gonna rot at home again like today :( SIEN. Oh and by the way, The Karate Kid is coming out tomorrow and I wanna watch it laaah omg! :(

My holidays gonna be super dooooper boring! :(

Threee more days! :(

XO!

Can't smile without you.

2010-06-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

If only you're mine.

I miss you so goddamn much ! :( I've just missed the chance that could talk you :( I shouldn't have went downstairs and watch tv UGH . Am super mad at myself right now grrr :( sigh . I can do nothing but just to wish that time could fly faster :( it's only Wednesday tomorrow . How I wish I could control the time . I only can send you msg and tell you how am I thru facebook inbox :( this is so not cool . Sighh ! Having tons of troubles with sleeping without you talking to me at night :( I dreamt of you every single night and I woke up with tears . Bad dream you know ? :(

Parents leaving to London tomorrow! Gonna rule the house :D

XO!

I need you .

2010-06-07T13:07:00.001+08:00

So , I guess I really couldn't smile without you with me .

I miss you so much :( I really couldn't go to bed without hearing your voice . I cried myself to sleep and dreamt of you . Tons of songs that I liked , reminds me of you and I couldn't stop my tears from bursting out . All of my friends tried talk to me , read me bedtime stories and let me sleep , sadly it doesn't works ! Time pass really really slow :'( .

I kept myself on for all day cause I really don't wanna miss any chances that could talk to you .

I want time flies faster this week :'( .

XO!

Who are you

2010-06-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

Derrick & I :D

HI . Back to blog again . Am superb bored right now and I don't know what should I do right now . FML max meen ! Planned to skate this morning , but I canceled it last minute HAHA . Well , having tons of problem with sleeping nowadays :( I can't sleep at night . But I've no idea why . I'm so tired now , I tried to sleep but I just can't . What is wrong with me :( am I falling sick again ?

By the way , it's june already :) time flies really really fast . And yes , mid-terms over already :D I don't have to sit down infront of a bunch of boring books every night anymore till Aug or Sep's exam :P time for me to plan what to do during holidays now :) any plans on your heads now ? I bet all of you do :D hahahaha . Anyone of you wanna date me ? :P hehehe *just kidding.

Since I've got nothing to do right now , so am gonna update some outings , with no pictures hahahaha !

Woke up late . Called Kar Ben then headed to Sunway . And so , had movie session with Jun Shen and Kar Ben on Saturday . We watched Nightmare On Elm Street and I rate it 3/10 . Its superb scary and I can't stop screaming in the cinema . Wtf haha ! After movie , dinner at Popeyes then Jun Shen dropped me home to meet up with my brother . One exhausted day for me :)

Next day , which is Sunday :D woke up pretty early but skipped dhamma school . Had breakfast at one new restaurant at ss15 , the dimsum over there really sucky ! So yeah , we went another round at ss18 :D we ate Nasi Bariani ( I think that's the name :X ) and it taste super awesome . After that , spend almost all of my time with Mel and Jun Shen since they slept over at my place on Saturday night . Oooh and , headed back to grandma's for yummy dinner and had great time with cousins :D hehehe .

Another exhausted day for me ;) .

Hmmm , went skating with Rose , Kent , Jun Shen and others yesterday . :)

Done updating .

XO!

one time

2010-06-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

Whatever it takes .

Skipped school :D

Sorry for neglecting you for days , blog :( will update one proper soon ! :)

Toodles

XO!

tearsdrop on my guitar

2010-05-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

They are my Random 'family' :)

I abandon-ed my blog again . Sorry blog !

Oh well , Mid-term's over and I'm totally free like a bird now :D gonna go outing every single day and won't be attending to school for the next whole week :D so means , I have three weeks of holidays instead of two :P

Went study group with the random family on Tues at Taipan . And it failed badly .

Ditched skating on wed . Sleep whole freaking afternoon and feeling really goood :D hahahaha .

Went skating on Thrus . :) dinner with Elly at Sakae Sushii .

Oooh and , went Pyramid with my random family today :) great time with them then met up with KB at night !

That's all I guess ? Freaking tired :( Nights .

XO!

He used to be my hero .

2010-05-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

Do you know how it feels like when your dumped by someone you love the most ?

Three more days till 26th May . Do you still remember what day is it ? It is the day , we started to like each other and texting/calling each other everyday . - 2006 .

Back from Pyramid with Kar Ben . Bumped inot , Von , Yin and Vanessa :)

Watched Shrek Forever After with the loved one yesterday night .

Rate 8.5/10 :)

After movie , headed to ss2 for supper . Reached home around 130am . Wanted to meet up with Ken but failed :/

Gonna be one tiring day tomorrow .

XO!

I would rather hurt myself

2010-05-20T23:29:00.002+08:00

Am freaking bored right now ! Planned to study but its superb obvious that I've failed . Sigh . How am I gonna pass and get good marks if I don't study ! Rawr . I need someone to motivate me right now , I don't wanna fail my maths OMG . Am really serious men , I really don't wanna fail my maths :(

Well , screwed Add Maths paper today . Wasted one hour time sleeping , wtf ! But at least I did some question and thanks Eve :P ( you know who you are :D ) anyways , tuition was fine . Did not get any complaint from teacher . But teacher's asking me to go Kumon ! Omg , I'm so lazy to go another tuition already :( hopefully she don't go talk to my father about this Kumon thingy .

By the way , rained the whole afternoon and great time sleeping before tuition . Planning to skip tuition too cause of my super comfortable bed but I failed . Fact , I don't think I should skip if I wanna get good marks for this time's maths paper which is on Monday . It giving tons of stress/pressure :( I'll collapse and die one day cause of doing maths ! Hahaha . Taught of skipping school tomorrow BUT there's exam tomorrow ! Sigh , exams ruined all my beautiful plans :( raaawr !

Anyhooo , might go outing with Nicole and other tomorrow . :)

XO!

our song .

2010-05-19T21:48:00.001+08:00

The mummay & sister that I adoree ! :) ♥

I screwed History paper 2 up ! Great , I don't know how much I gonna get this time , less than 10% ? Maybe :/ siggh ! Hmmm , Science Paper 2 wasn't fine too . :(

Went skating with the usuals ones today . Wanted to meet up with my dear son , Joanne but sadly she did not showed up ? Surprisingly Nigel was there :D hahaha ! Fooled around with him and great laugh with him too :D he left the rink around 630pm , then I hung-ed out with the others ;) left the rink around 7pm , thanks Kyuo fella for treating me Mcd :D

Reached home , shower then watched TV with sibs! :)

Add maths paper tomorrow , means , Die ! :( sigh .

Gonna go watch Sisters Of Pearl now :D

XO!

When your here with me .

2010-05-18T15:53:00.000+08:00

I love you , boy .

Sorry for neglecting my blog for days . Well , I deleted the two blardy emo posts due to some reasons :) have been really busy with studies these few days ! I'm not joking laah alright , I really did study ! But , only a lil bit . Heeeee ! Mid-term's really killing me :( I guess , this time's result gonna be worse ? :( sigh .

Anyways , went out with the Kar Ben on saturday . Helped brother to look for his Iron Man 2 Helmet hahahaha ! After that , had dinner at Carls Jr with Vivi , Kent , Jun Shen & KB lah of course :D after dinner , met up with brother in celebrities then to sss murni for supper cause brother doesn't want to work out as he was tooo happy :D hahahaha !

Reached home around 12am and thanks Vivienne for dropping me home :) .

Went Sunday school , Nicole ditched me :( raaawr ! Had bfast at home , daddy bought us ' Wan Tan Mee ' . After bfast , online for awhile and fall asleep . Woke around 5pm and had awesome yummy dinner at home with the family . I slept back after dinner , wtf ! Hahaha , I guess I was too tired ? :/

Skipped tuition yesterday due to the terrible tummy ache :( sleep the whole freaaaking afternoon :D sent mummy to KLIA at night , then bought mcd for brother :)

Oooh and by the way , exam's not fine ! Screw everything up ! :(

XO!

Only when your here with me.

2010-05-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

What should I do?

I love you.

XO!

Grandma/Mama day & Leo IR!

2010-05-11T18:19:00.003+08:00

Hello, back to blog again. Well, mid-year exam's just right the corner.. or should say there's only 3 more freaking hectic days till exams? SIEN! I've not started studying yet and I know I'm doomed!

Uhh whatever! Anyways, school's fine. Great time laughing with the usual one in class, and have been emo-ing this few days. I don't know why but I just feel so down all the time! Sigh, am really suffering.

Hmmm, am gonna update something about Grandma's Birthday/Mother Day & SU'IR day.

Woke up pretty early on Sunday. Ditched Nicole :P had breakfast with Family + Grandma(Mummy's) at Puchong. The restaurant totally packed! Waited for around 15minutes to get one place, and its a super uncomfortable place! The service there quite bad but awesome dimsum they have :D hehehehe!

After breakfast, headed to KLCC after dropping brothers and grandma home to get my specs. Left KLCC around 230pm, headed home picked brothers up and straight to grandma's place(Daddy's). Awesome buffet dinner we had :D we can't even finish all the foods, it's like really, really.. ALOT :O

After dinner, chit-chatted with all the relatives! Uncle bought BR Ice-cream cake from grandma and its super tasty! Yummm yummm! Had photo session for all the relatives, nieces&nephew, the children's superb cute! They pose-d for long time just to wait for me to snap :P hahahaha! They love it when I take picture of them with flash!

Am not gonna upload any pictures of them now, cause am really really lazy right now rawr!

Left grandma's place around 1030pm :) great night!

By the way, went SU Leo's IR day on Saturday with Yuen Yin, Von, Nicole and others. Picked Yuen Yin, Von and Yee at SS19 and headed to father's office to get my hair done. Brother dropped us at Summit later on. And ooooh, it was held at Summit's Auditorium.

All the performance were okay. It was kinda bored anyway. Joined the boys to the pool centre right before the event ends cause its really really bored! So yeah.. after pool session, we went Pyramid for movie. We watched Ip Man 2 :) what a awesome show :D hahahaha! Oooooh and and, we dine-d at Gasoline.

Headed to Station 1 for yumcha session with them, and went home around err, 1030pm? :)

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Alright, done updating! Gonna go have another few hours sleep now :( shooo tired!

XO!

Girl in my mirror.

2010-05-06T18:10:00.000+08:00

Plain sick of everything you did.

HI, school's fine today :D as usual lah laughing with those ~~friendly~~ classmates :P hahaha!

Am superb bored now so I decided to update my stinky ~~cute~~ blog HAHAHA wtf! Went skating with the usual ones! Skated till around 630pm and headed back home :D an superb exhausted day for me yesterday. Fell asleep at 1030pm, and woke up pretty early today :O

I used to late for school but today I'm early! :D

Ooooh and by the way, there's no tuition for me today as teacher's sick! So yeah, hopefully she don't postpone it to tomorrow or I'll ask someone to screw her wtf LOL!

Anyways, a day out with the loved ones tomorrow! Gonna be awesome like all the time :D and might be skipping school tomorrow! Should I? I think I should skip, but I'm afraid that teacher will send me warning letter like the others :/ Well, I don't think I skipped school more than 10days lah! :D so I think I don't have to worry that much :P

Gonna go dinner now! Toodles.

XO!

Kiss and Tell.

2010-05-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

I have the urge to blog now, but I've got no idea what should I blog about :(

I couldn't stop thinking of you ♥

Hmm, I've neglected my blog for days cause of the busy-ness!

Am now back and saved my almost-dead-blog HAHA! I guess, I've lost all my readers :( hmmm.

Labour Day!

Woke up pretty early and had breakfast with family @ KL. After breakfast, went home got myself ready and headed back to grandma's for dinner and parents to Uncle Lek's wedding. I decided to stay at grandma's all cause of coussie :P hahahaha! Watched drama with her the whole night till parents back from the wedding dinner at around 1030pm? :)

Mummy chit-chatted with Aunts till 1130pm while I and my cousins gossiping :P reached home around, 1230am! Straight to lovely bed after washing up :D

Sunday.

Woke up really early just to attend Sunday class! Taught that Nicole gonna be there but she just ffk-ed me :( ugh! And yes, finally I attended dhamma class with their tee's and I've payed the fees so means, I can skipped classes again YEAY YEAY!

Teacher : Oh dear, shushian! Finally you come to class with our dhamma t-shirts! Taught of asking you to buy another new one. *smiles* Where did you found it?
Me : Oh, my maid!
Teacher : Good!

Hahahaha!

After class, went home changed and headed to KL for breakfast then KLCC with parents only. Supposed to follow cousins to Pyramid but I ended up ffk! :P anyways, awesome time shopping with parents although I did not get anything. I don't know why but I just loved to go shopping with parents! :D hehehe. Tried on some hills with mum cause felt so bored staring at her while daddy eating his all-time-favourite junk food.

Did not dined at KLCC but somewhere near KLCC :D had claypot rice for dinner, yummmmmy! Headed back home after dinner, washed myself up then to sleep! Superb exhausted yet happy day with parents! :) ♥

Monday

School was fine. Tuition sucked big time! :(

Tuesday

Awesome laughing time with Ming Chuen and Yune Shin in class :D hahahaha! ♥ I slept the whole afternoon and got tons of missed calls from lovelies! Sorry guys :(

Might be skating tomorrow. Hmm see first :/

Gonna off now! Toodles!

XO!

I love him.

2010-04-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

Mao Mao!

Hi, decided to upload pictures straight from blogger cause photobucket is being a bitch right now!

School was fine today or shall say, kinda awesome during addmaths and science class :D great time laughing with Chuen and Yune Shin while others doing their works :P teas-ed Chuen like mad with Yune Shin and couldn't stop laughing when Chuen admits that she's shit! HAHAHA. Well, not just I and Yune Shin were laughing all the time, Angel and Mei laughed too when they heard this! Hahaha.

Ditched skating today. Great time sleeping in the afternoon with the air-cond on and stuff :D no more sleeping for me tomorrow as I have my tuition at 3pm :( freakish early! I hate tuitions ALOT :(

Oh and by the way, might be watching movie with Jason at night :)

Gonna off now!

XO!

Never knew I needed.

2010-04-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

I think I'm falling for you.

HELLO. Im'ma gonna update something! :D

Hmmm, outing with Panda, Von, Yin and others was awesome! Will update a proper one soon :) with awesome pictures! Hahahaha. You can view the pictures on FB if you want to :) HERE HERE

Gonna update bout Sunday then :D

Woke up pretty early, attended Dhamma class until 1030am, afterthat, brunch with the family at KL. After brunch, came home then have a good sleep till around 430pm? :D woke up and straight headed back to grandma's place for dinner! Watched shows, chitchat, play comp with the cousins after dinner. Wanted to joined Dad, mum, brothers and friends for supper but endup I staying at grandma's with the cousins :D did not regret for not joining yo! :P

They came back to grandma's around 1015pm, left grandma's place around 1030pm and reached home around 1130pm. Was superb exhausted that day yet I had fun. O and anyway, last min decided to cancel IR plan and I did not regret too :D

By the way, school was fine today so do tuition :) won't be skating tomorrow or should say, won't be skating that often anymore due to my lazyness hahaha! I feel like sleeping everytime I came home from school :( I can't stop myself for not lying on my bed after bathing! I even skipped my lunch just to sleep the whole freaking afternoon. I'm this tired :(

Most probaly skipping school on Thurs and Fri :)

Off to bed now! Nights.

XO!

I'll love you forever.

2010-04-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hi world!

School was fine. Outing on Saturday with lovelies to Midvalley, will update bout it soon. Then yesterday grandma's place :)

I love you baby.

XO!

Cry.

2010-04-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

~~I'm not okay/fine at all.~~

Everything happen in just one hour time. I taught we've settled this problem. I was wrong.

I'm useless .

XO!

Someone's watching over me.

2010-04-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

♥

School was fine today.

Went skating with Edwin today. Joon Sean and others were there too but still, sorry Edwin! I left when your about to skate hahahaha! I'm not in the right mood to skate today :( maybe next time? Promise won't ffk you again! Hahahaha.

Left Pyramid around 530pm, reached home straight to my lovely bed and sleep. I did not sleep well, bad tempered! I scolded my maid just because she did not refill my bottle water and also because she walk too slow! I've got no idea what is wrong with me today, I couldn't stop cursing around :( I've gotto stop this!

Skipped lunch and dinner today. And my room's freezing cold right now :(

Sigh.

Signing off!

XO!

Baby.

2010-04-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

I love the way you make me smile when I'm crying ♥

School was kinda like awesome today :) great time laughing with Angel and Yuen Mei :D hahahaha! Well, miracle do happens :O I did not fall asleep in class today and I even pay-ed a lil attention to the teachers in class except for BM :P hahaha!

Tuition was fine today. :)

I'm not happy.

XO!

I miss you.

2010-04-19T16:30:00.001+08:00

I miss you every single day, moment, hour, minute and second ♥

School's fine today, nothing much special happened. Everything's normal :)

O well, I had a lot of fun with the bfriends. Especially Angel, Suet Yee, Yuen Mei, Ming Chuen and Yune Shin :) awesome time chatting with Yuen Mei and Angel in class. :) never ever failed to smile or laugh when your with Angel :) ♥

Anyways, went back grandma's place yesterday evening for dinner! :D skipped dhamma school and ditched Nicole :P hahahaha sorry! Woke up pretty early, headed to Klang for breakfast with the family. The restaurant totally packed! We waited for almost half an hour :O hahaha but awesome dimsum they have :D

Oh by the way, did not met up with Wei Yu yesterday as she went for her extra tuition class. So hung with Sam and Kit the noisy brothers :D hahaha! Left grandma's place around 830pm cause brother ain't feeling well. Reached home, straight to the tv and watch A Fistful of Stances's last two episode! Awesome show :D

Had soup for supper! Ha ha ha!

Called B befor heading to bed. :)

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Something for the Aloysius Goh Kok Ren!

Hi, brother from another mother!

I know its too late but still, I wanna say something.

You've left us and now your at Ipoh. Hows everything? Any new awesome friends? Hows your studies? can catch up with the others? Hope your doing really really great over there!

Well, I miss you a lot! Seriously, a lot! I don't know when can we meet again :( I really hope to see you really really soon. Your not on sometimes when I wanna talk to you. I missed those days we used to text each other, argueing for no damn reason, teasing each other, laughing for no reason together and etc etc! There a lot a lot of uncountable memories with you.

Remember the first time we met! Haha. We stares at each other and smile, then you got my number from don't know who and we started to text each other everyday and share our secrets.

Am really really sorry for all those fights we had before. Forget about those and keep those pretty memories of you and I in your heart :P hahahahahaha! Anyhooo, thanks for being a great listener. Thanks for giving me all those advices altho I did not listen, thanks for accompanying me when I'm bored, thanks for being here for me whenever I needed you, thanks for every single tiny thing! ♥

All the best, and keep in touch yo! :)

XO!

let me know.

2010-04-17T17:33:00.000+08:00

Am freaking bored right now! :( Who willing to save me from boredom? :(

XO!

All I ever wanted.

2010-04-16T17:39:00.001+08:00

Skipped school today and awesome time sleeping. Woke up superb early and all thanks to Angel Chuah and the Lau Suet Yee! Grr. They woke me up at 9am :( I'm still shoo tired that time. Rawr!

Went down changed and waited for them to call again cos I gotto go pick them up to my place. Met up with 'em at 99speedmart, Taipan. Walked back to my house, they waited for me to bath and I waited for them to change and off to Pyramid. Angel wanna get her dress, but sadly there's none suits her well. Left Pyramid around 3pm, reached home wanna sleep so badly but I couldn't close my freaking asshole eyes! :(

Don't wanna waste my time dreaming, so I decided to update my blog! :D

Well, again! I did not sleep well for three days straight! I'm having tons of problems with sleeping! Seriously, I can't go to bed without tears. And am freaking sick of it already. I hate being emo infront of my happy friends! I emo/cry when they were laughing/smiling happily. They tried to make me smile with their lames jokes but all I did is showing them my freaking fake smile.

I'm sorry about that.

I felt so useless. Crying/emo cause of a unworthy person. I'm so wasting my time but I just couldn't get over you. I've tried so hard to get over you since 2007! When I was about to give up, you came back again! You just ruined my life you know? You should go and never come back. I wanna stop suffering! I'm serious.

I'll say No to you. :)

We are hardworking sisters! :D

XO!

I can wait forever.

2010-04-15T21:01:00.001+08:00

YOYOYOYO!

I got my wallet back on Tuesday and thanks a mill to Angel Chuah! :D and also Suet Yee :P HAHA! Not gonna elaborate how I got it back.

Well, school was pretty fun on Tues. :) I had a great laughed with the awesome classmates and mummy, sis. It was superb bored before recess and because I'm thinking about my wallet, so I did not pay any attention to the teacher. Was tear-ing quietly without letting anyone knows. Am really afraid that I'll lost my IC :'(

Past, so should stop thinking about it and lesson learned! Shouldn't have left my precious wallet on the table in class and day dreaming when there is nobody beside you. By the way, the thief's pretty caring too! He/she left 1 bucks for me to get some foods (Y) LOOOL. *kidding laah!*

Anyways, went skating with Panda, Joanne, Yuen Yin and Ee Von yesterday. Of course, there is some hockey skaters there. Had a awesome time laughing with 'em. Really couldn't stop laughing when I'm out with Panda and others. They just couldn't stop fooling around infront of a crowd! HAHAHA. Oooooh and, Panda borrowed hockey skates from David and the way she skate superb funny cos' David's skates are too big for her :P HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

They left around 5pm and I started to emo again! >:( Joon Sean came down and met up with me then walked around with him then Melvin tagged along. Brother picked me up at around 8pm. Reached home, bath, online then fall asleep. A superb bad dream woke me up at 1am. :( I cried and I really need listener, but no one's here for me.

Planned to skip school today but I failed. I woke up automatically at 7am, got ready and off to school. Almost late for schoool too. Haha! Anyhow, school's fine for me today :) great laugh with Mummy, sis, Yuen Mei and the others! ;)

And oh, tuition's fine too! :)

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p/s : Skipped gym due to the superb bad mood!

I know my dog's really cute :D HAHAHA. And, does she looks like me? OMG. All my friends said that she looks like me :( especially, the lovelies! Grrrr.

And and and, am skipping school tomorrow and out with Mum and Sis! :D

XO!

Bad day.

2010-04-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

Bad/unlucky day. (Y)

Hi. School wasn't fine at all. Seriously. I've got no mood to do anything after knowing my wallet got stolen by some asshole. But what can I do? I can do nothing. Sigh. I just need my IC and the memories back! You can take all the money you want but, please.. return the wallet back to me. :'( you don't have to show up. You can just leave it at somewhere I can see. Thank you.

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Told dad about it and got scolded. Well, I couldn't blame on others. Cause I shouldn't have left it on the table. But my wallet's just right infront of me! I don't know how it go lost! I did not walked around or what, I've been sitting down at my place and day dreaming since recess till History class over and I realized that my wallet's missing.

This is just so weird. Sigh.

Hoping something good will happen tomorrow :(

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Anyways, slept the whole afternoon cause not feeling well. I did not sleep well, I even tear-ed. I don't know why but.. I really couldn't control my tears. I don't know how to face her anymore eventho she's not in this country. Sigh.

Im'ma gonna go finish up my un-done homeworks then maybe to bed? Hopefully I can go sleep soundly tonight. I hate sleepless nights!

XO!

Cousin!

2010-04-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

Its April 12 today which means,

Is Happy Wei Yu's Day :D

HAHAHAHAHAH!

Have a blast dear cousin. Thanks for everything, thanks for backing me up and everything :) thanks for being here with me all the time. You've been a really awesome cousin in my life. :) I laughed my ass off when I'm with you all the time and I appreciatte it alot. :)

Glad to have you as my closet cousin :)

I love you!
Mwahmwahmwahmwah :D

XOXOXO!

Outing.

2010-04-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

~~I'm fine. I guess?~~

HI. Back from Pyramid and my day was great! :)

Out with Ee Von, Yuen Yin, Weiji, Wei Xiang & Yong Jie? (sorry, I don't know how to spell your names) :/

Woke up pretty early today and washed myself up the get ready and headed to Pyramid around 130pm. Met up with the guys and Ee Von at Starbucks, sat down and chit-chatted till Yuen Yin arrived! ;) before heading down to Ampsquare, visited Von's workmates at Roxy :)

By the way, bumped into the sisters which alot of people dislike them? :) ahhh forget about it :D we sang/scream thru the mike from 2pm till 530pm HAHAHAHAHA! After Ampsquare, headed to Bubba Gump for dinner :) Yuen Yin have to left at 7pm :( so yeah, left the 5 of us.

O well, they planned to have another around at Bbq Plaza but failed. HAHAHA. Everyone went home early. Next time maybe? :D the boys fooled around when we having our dinner and made us laughed like mad! Hahahahaha. After dinner, walked around aimlessly.

Brother came around 830pm. Skipped gym :( rawr!

Am superb exhausted right now. :(

XO!

Dead.

2010-04-08T23:54:00.001+08:00

~~Wasn't in the mood at all.~~

Well, what's wrong with the world anyway? I'm so tired and sick of everything already. I don't know why! Really seriously don't know why that the god love to see me suffering in all kinds of problems! I've had enough. I couldn't stand it anymore and I wanna shout out loud :(

Everyone changed alot. I know, I changed alot too!

I prefer my old happy life! I don't know when I gonna break down? Or should say, I've already broken down. Don't wish to see me standing back up and be hyper like how I used to. I won't be able to do that anymore, I prehaps?

How I wish that I was invisible. So that all those shity problems won't happened. Right? :) I know I know, I'm the one who causes all these problems. Nevermind, you can say whatever you LOVE to say :)

I've been hiding under my blanket and cry for so long and I really wanna stop crying. I cried alone, facing all kinds of problems alone. I don't know what should I do right now. I'm hiding away from tons tons of problems now. I don't wanna accept the fact that I actually have lost my best friend.

I never expect that it will happened! I taught our friendship could last long. You never give me chances, but I gave you tons. Thinking back, I felt so stupid now. I shouldn't have trusted you again and again! I should have trusted the others who told me about you.

You've been blamming tons of things on me and I forgive you. I've been here with you and go thru all kinds of problems with you. But where are you when I'm in pain? You are not here with me. I tried to call, but you hung up the phone (Y) and now, your asking me..

"Why don't you come to me when you have problems? Am I still your best friend? Why are you talking to other people when your having problems but not me? I'm your best friend you know? But I guess you got yourself some new best friends right? You don't feel like trusting me, right? I taught we could be friends forever till the end of the world? But I guess you've forgotten what you promised me. One day, you'll regret for ignoring me."

WTH? Sounds more like you ignoring me. I've got no idea WHY are you trusting someone that actually cheating on you. I don't know what are you thinking. Sigh..

How I wished that I wasn't borned with all these shity problems. I don't want all these kind of shity problems! I want peaceful life without any fights, arguements and so on.. I've tried to avoid, but failed all the times! (Y)

Well,

if only I've never exist in this world. Nothing will happen.

XO.

Yes I love you.

2010-04-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

I love the one and only you ♥

HI. Back from Pyramid and had a great time with lovelies! :)

Tummy really really hurts today in school :( back home from school at around 9am and great time sleeping :D mummy woke me up at 1130am then headed to clinic for check up! After checking up, back to dad's office and had sausage bun for brunch! :)

After brunch, headed to INTI college with mum and brother since he's gonna go register :) left INTI around 1pm headed home get ready and off to Pyramid! :) got out from the rink around 7pm and I'm superb exhausted! :( sadly, I couldn't go to bed now cause I'm having tons of tons of sleepless nights! :( really. Seriously. Screw. All. These. Sleepless. Night! :( Rawr!

I FEEL LIKE SKIPPING SCHOOL TOMORROW! :(

But I know I won't skip tomorrow as I've promised sis and mummy that I'll be going school :/ hopefully I'll get better by tomorrow. :/ PRAY HARD FOR ME PLEASE. I DONT WANNA SUFFER LIKE HOW I JUST DID TODAY :(

I'm out of words already! So cyaaa guys :D

XO!

Sick.

2010-04-05T19:46:00.001+08:00

Hello.

School's fine today but I ain't fine at all. Sigh.

Am freaking sick now. I don't know what is wrong with me but I've been emo for straight 3 days. I'm so tired :(

I don't know how am I gonna go to bed tonight as my stoooopid idiotic nose is blocking! UGH. Am freaking suffering like mad cow right now! D: I need medication lah wtf! I WANT IT TO RECOVER RIGHT NOW NOW NOW NOW! :( sigh. I know its impossible and I'm just being lame or whatever! LOL.

I've lost my inspiration to blog right now! D: nevermind, gonna go and check mails now!

Toodles!

XO!

Maybe.

2010-04-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

Hello, back from grandma's and had a great time sleeeping at cousin's place :D

Anyways, went Night outing with Ee Von and skipped gym yesterday :D supposed to catch a movie with her, Panda and others in the afternoon! But I accidentally fall asleep so I missed it! :(

Reached Pyramid around 730pm plusplus. Met up with Ee Von and walked aimlessly with Ee Von's another friend. LOL! Had desert at Honey Moon taste like shit! :( after desert, sat down at one place and chit-chatted till 1045pm. Switch place, sat down at the stair near skating rink and continue chit-chatting till 1145pm and Ee Von really have to leave, so yeah I went looked for brother in celebrities :)

Ohhyahhh! Supper with Vivi, Kent, brother and Jun Shen :) reached home around 130am then sleeep! :D

Thanks Ee Von for accompanying me! MWAHMWAHMWAH!

Mhmmmm, woke up pretty early today. Had 'wan tan mee' for bfast then headed to grandma's place. (or should I say, cousin's place?) HAHAHA! I sleep the whole afternoon and I feeling sho good nao :D HAHAHAHA! Dinner at grandma's then back homeeee! :D

Great day with cousin! :)

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OH SHUCKS!

Tmrw's monday! >:(

Signing offf!

SEEEYOU!

XOXO!

Run away love.

2010-04-03T13:41:00.003+08:00

Hello lovelies! :)

Am currently in a blogging mood :D hahaha!

Skipped school yesterday and went outing with Panda, Sherilyn, Joanne and Yuen Yin :D they left around 5pm then met up with 'brother' and ashton ;) sat down infront of Meng's shop for almost 2 hours as we've no where to go. HAHA!

Anyways, I got myself JB's album and Meng played it for me :D thanks! We left Meng's shop around 9pm then to Carl Jr for dinner. ~~Baby~~ came and met up with me then to gym ;)

Reached home around 1230am and thanks Vivi for dropping me home ;)

Hmmm, I guess that's all? :)

CYOU.

XOXOXO!

I'm back to blogspot again!

2010-04-01T16:32:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blogspot again WTF. I deleted my onsugar again! YES again -.-

Well, I thinks that blogspot is better than onsugar :/ I coulnt' handle two blogs and I don't know why created another one -.- LOL! Nevermind, forget it lahh okay!

Anyways, today's Aprilfools day! You guys got fooled by your friends yet? Well, I got fooled by alot of people today :( and I tried to fool them back but failed! :( Im'ma gonna go learn how to fool people ~~SOON~~! LOL HAHAHA!

Gotto go tuition in another half hour :( skipping school and going gym tonight! :)

Last but not least,

Happy Birthday Eng Yik! :)
Signing off!

XO!

Eenie Meenie

2010-03-26T14:29:00.001+08:00

Skipped school today and had a great awesome time sleeping :D hehehehe! I didn't want to blog but I'm too bored :(

Supposed to be @ sunway now skating with lovelies but no one's free to drop me there :( Im'ma gonna go to my dad's shop later I gues? :/ will see again! :D Ohwell, yesterday's tuition was fine :) done all her works and did not get any scolding yesterday.

Anyhooo, its weekends tomorrow! :D YEAY! Heheheh. Can't wait to see my cousins on Sunday if I'm going back grandma's :D hmmm, I kinda like lost my interest in blogging :( should I delete my blog? But I know I'll miss blogging and create another new one, then delete again -.- ugh!

O WELL, am gaining weight again! Skipped gym for almost one whole week already :) and might be going tonight but still gotto see first! :P bahahaha! Might having dinner with Lil Edwin tonight if I'm free ;)

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Befor I end my post,

I wanna wish my long-lost friend a very Happy Birthday! :D Ha ha!

Janean Rivera Tan

Hmm, we met each other in the year 2008 during school's koko on Saturdays. I had alot of fun crapping around, ponteng, laughing and more with you! I don't know how but we get along together really well. Do you remember? The first time I and Mei Jun went to your house for "study group"? And do you remember what we do in the end? Rapping each other, running here and there, non-stop laughing for no reasons, camwhoe etc etc! I had alot of fun that day and I'll never forget :)

You shifted school in end of the year 2008, and we lost contact. I really missed those time that we had together last time. You came back to usj12 school and I'm superb happy to see you again! :D hahahaha!

Keep in touch babeyyy! ;)

Happy Rocking Sweet Fifteen!
You know I love you :) MWAHMWAHMWAH!

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p/s: Sorry ffk-ing skaters! :X

Signing off!

XO!

Sweetheart.

2010-03-25T14:50:00.000+08:00

HI. Back from school and it ain't really fine at all.

Headache in the morning then sleep thru the whole PJ period while others went down and exercise :) was doing maths tuition homeworks during BI and BM period! :D

Anyways, am superb pissed right now. I don't know what the hell is wrong with you omg! Just an lil issue and you're like mad @ the whole freaking world. I did not do anything wrong to you, and why are showing me that kind of faces? Sometimes, I thinks that your really really weird. I mean, why do you wanna mad @ innocent peoples for no god damn reasons?

I seriously don't know what is wrong with you! I just wanna skip school, why must I get your permission? Your just my classmate alright? I don't need your permission for skipping school alright. If you wanna ignore me just because of I skipping school, then its okay! You can just ignore me! I won't mind.

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Am gonna continue watch Hi my sweetheart nao! :)

Toodles!

XOXOXO.

If we ever meet again!

2010-03-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

HI.

I'm back from Pyramid and I'm superb exhausted! :( skated with the lovelies! :) Yuen Yin was there too but she did not skate, she sat outside and sleep :P

School was fine anyway! Nothing special happened, had sportcheck today.

By the way, went back grandma's yesterday night! Had dinner with the relatives from S'pore and I had a great time with cousins, and all! Superb happy to see my nieces and nephews fooling around there, sho damn cute! :D

After dinner @ restaurant, went back to grandma's and chitchat! Came home really late and superb tired in school today until I couldn't stop complaining! :P hahahaha!

Alright, I shall go back to my works now.

Cyou! :D

XO!

Tik-tok-tik-tok

2010-03-22T16:26:00.000+08:00

School was fine today. Had fun with the usual bfriends :)

Wanted to skip school today, but I didn't :) I slept thru the whole freaking Sivik period and I had an awesome time dreaming! :D hahaha.

Anyways, went gym yesterday night with Vivienne then supper with the others ;) Zujian, Eric & Winnie joined us! :) went home pretty early and sleep like a piiiiig! :D won't be going gym tonight, have plenty of un-done homeworks! Going only on thurs ;)

By the way,

Happy Belated Damira! :) hope you had a blast! ♥

I gonna go back to tv naooooo! Cyouuu guys :D

XO!

one time.

2010-03-21T17:09:00.001+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO!

Gonna go back grandma's place soon! :D
But still, I've got time to update a lil :D

Skipped dhamma school today. Had bfast with the family @ SS15. After bfast, came home and then online :D

School's gonna reopen again tomorrow! OMG :( time flies too fast, seriously! I wish I could hold the time and let it pass slowly. I'm still in some holiday mood and now, I feel like sleeping over @ grandma's! Geeez!

I can't wait to see Angel and Suet Yee tomorrow altho I've just said that I'm still in holiday mood and I don't feel like going to school. I have fun with 'em in school so I think tomorrow will be a day laughing with them? :D hopefully.. OH YESS!!

I just remembered something!

I still haven't complete my maths work! GREAT! Gonna get some complaints from teacher again on Tues! So, hopefully I could finish it all by tomorrow? :D hahaha! By the way,

Worse thing ever, Im'ma gonna skip gym tonight! :( how am I supposed to lose weight if I kept on skipping it? :@ sigh. Will be going tomorrow night I guess? :D gotta finsih up my works before leaving to gym :D

I don't love weeeekdays with tuitions, school and blah! :(

Gonna go off now.
Toodles!

XO!

Only love.

2010-03-20T22:46:00.001+08:00

HEYYAWW!

Un-privated my blog again.

Gonna continue and pretend :)

Rot @ home today! :O this so not me! :( I did not get my ass out of the house today. Wanted to skate, but lazy. Wanted to watch movie, but don't know which movie to watch and don't know who to watch with. Then wanna go dinner, don't know what to eat and don't know who to eat with too! UGH. I ended up eating Mcd @ home alone :'(

Supposed to be @ Pav with Joseph, Kevin, May & Jane! But I ended up ffk. YES AGAIN! I'm so so so sorry. Blame on those busy adults >:( and and and, girlf said that she's there too! UGH. WASTED! Nevermind, atleast I got to see her on Fri ;)

Friday

Went Pyramid just to see the girlf. She went home early so I was alone! But luckily, Meng and others are there with me :D chit-chatted with them till around 9pm++ then to gym with, the lovelies ;)

Am superb exhausted after working out! OMG, my brother is like killing me in there! Hahahaha! But I spend most of my time with Vivi in there :D <3 went yumcha session the lovelies after working out till late night! ;) reached home, lie on my bed and sleep like a dead pig :D nyeh!

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OMG! School's starting really really soon! :( I'm still in holiday mood lah okay! Why wanna start so soon? :( wishing to have another week of holiday :( I hate school, I hate maths, I hate books, I hate carrying bunch of textboooks, I hate carryinng my bag, I hate wearing uniforms, I hate wearing school shoes! I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT SCHOOL :(

but, I love my friends! :D :D

Ahh, I think I shall go nao :) Cyouuuuuuuuu!

XO!

When you believe.

2010-03-18T14:50:00.000+08:00

Yoyoyoyo!

Just woke up from sleep :)

March holiday ain't fun at all :( I still gotto go tuition on Tues and Thurs! UGH. WHO SAY HOLIDAY CAN TUITION ONE?! Supposed to let us rest mah right?! :(

Am superb exhausted!

Gym with brother, Vivi, Kent & Jun Shen on Tues and Wed night :) I don't think I gonna go tonight as my muscles are superb painful! Rawr. After gym, then yumcha with them till late night.

O well, tuesday's tuition totally sucked! Teacher and dad scolded me. UGH! Seriously, I hate this men! You gotta give me sometime cause its maths you teaching me. You gotto be patient :( I don't really understand what you talking about but I've tried my best! Ahh nevermind, you can continue scolding if you want :)

Skated with the usual ones yesterday and had alot of fun joking around with Derrick, Joanne and Josephine! :D left around 7pm plus ;)

Planned to go outing with girlf but failed! SHUCKS :(

Signing off!

Gonna go practise my maths nao before teacher starts complaining AGAIN -.-

XOXOXOXO!

I will always love you.

2010-03-15T23:35:00.001+08:00

Loves.

Hello mello!

Back from Pyramid and had a great time skating with Elly :D

Joe, Eric, Melvin Lim and Joey were there today ;) its superb packed! Can't even skate properly :( skated awhile and sat outside and rest till 6pm :D hah! Had mcd for brunch and thanks Melvin Wong ;)

Had dinner @ some taiwanese restaurant with Elly, Joe, Eric and Melvin Lim. Had alot of fun chit-chatting with 'em :D they're so funny and their jokes really make me laugh my ass off! :P after dinner, get ourselves some ice-cream @ Mcd.

The guys left around 9pm. Left I and Elly. Bumped into Vivi and others ;) chit-chatted awhile then left Pyramid around 930pm :D reached home around 10pm? Washed myself up then met up with the labtop :D hahahaha!

By the way, went back grandma's yesterday right after dropping mummy @ the airport . Slept the whole afternoon :D and cousin woke me up :@ grr. Had awesome dinner @ grandma's :D and then watched tv with the cousins, aunties, uncles and grandma :D great time laughing with them ;) ♥

Supposed to sleepover @ grandma's, but I couldn't cause I have tons of homeworks to do :'( screw the homeworks! Grr.

Next time will do :D

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Alright, signing off!

XOXOXOXOXO!

Better In Time.

2010-03-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

Down with tummy ache.

Well, my day sucks! Really really suck! I don't know what is wrong with me today, but I'm just simply down and sick. Felt so weird today :(

By the way, the weather is killing me and now, its raining so heavily! Ugh, I hate this. Seriously! I'm getting really really sick of myself these few days and I really don't know what am I thinking.. sigh! I really need a listerner with me now.

I've no idea why am I thinking something that it won't come true at all. I'm wasting my time I know. But I just couldn't stop thinking about it! It comes to my mind whenever I heard humans talking about you. I've been thinking about you day&night non-stop. Where are you?

Anyways,

Went pyramid around 5pm and met up with Elly @ Skating rink. Waited for her till 6pm? Supposed to watch Alice In The Wonderland but tickets sold out! :( so then, looked for Winnie but we couldn't get her! So yeah, ended up they looked for us and met with us @ BR.

Oh and yes, I bumped into alot of peoples today! :D like, Zhuo Hann & Zhuo Ying ( primary classmate) really really shocked okay, hahaha! Then Ling, Yuen Mei, Joseph, Wan Ting, Jenny and Wei Liang. :)

Did not have dinner with Elly and the others cause I wasn't feeling well. Went home early then had dinner @ home ;) after dinner, wash myself up here I am sitting infront of the labtop and continue dream :( I'm really really bored right now.

What should I do? :(

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&

Holidays are here already! :D

Mummy's leaving to Shang-hai tomorrow @ 12pm and she gonna be there for one whole week. So I think I won't be going out that much when mummy's not around? :) I'ma good girl I know :D hahahaha!

Might be going back grandma's place after sending mummy to airport tomorrow :D YEAY YEAY YEAY!

O right, gonna continue watch BOF nao. Toodles!

XO!

I miss you alot.

FWZ!

Outing.

2010-03-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

Gahh! I'm so lazy to upload pictures lah! Fact, there is no pictures too :) hehehe!

So, went Pyramid and met up with Panda, Ee Von and Yuen Yin and two other friends @ skating rink around 4pm. Left the skating rink around 5pm and had dinner @ Kim Gary. After dinner, walked around aimlessly and finaly to Roxy :D help Von's working partners to get what they want @ Asian Avenue and Famous Amous.

OHYEAHH, I and Yuen Yi hiding from Panda and her ... :P hahahah! We run like crazy and am really tired but yet I had alot of fun. Well, kinda emo in the first place but Panda and her jokes made me laugh like crazy! And sorry that I dropped your phone :P hahahahahaha!

Supposed join them for steamboat @ 10pm but I've gotto go somewhere :'( next time will do :D hahahah!

Ate a pint of Jamoca ice-cream @ BR. Superb full yo! Parents came pick me up around 9pm . :)

Will going out with them again tmrw I guess? :/ what about Suet Yee? :( but I might be going back hometown too >:( rawr!

Nevermind, will see tomorrow! :D

Gonna go off now.

XO!

Crawl.

2010-03-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

Hello world :)

Skipped school and feel so good waking up late :D hahaha!

I'm kinda rotting at home now :(

SISTER is at Summit now and I asked her to go Pyramid later but she couldn't :( I'm afraid that tmrw I'll ffk you again ler :'( nevermind, she won't mind I guess? Bwahahaha! :P

Am going to be @ Pyramid later but don't know who should I go with :( hmmmm. Might be skating, but still see first cause Yuen Yin and others gonna leave the rink @ 4pm :( rawr! Nevermind, I shall go now.

Will update later! :D

XO!

Today was a fairytale.

2010-03-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hello lovelies.

( I wanna stop pretending )

School was fine today and I had a great time with bfriends!

I had fun teasing, making fun, disturbing Angel and so on, but I think I've crossed her line? Altho she did not said it out loud, but I can see it. So SISTER, we should stop teasing MUMMY :) hahahaha!

Hmm well, I'm a good girl today :D I did not sleep in class today! :D I should keep this attitude up :D pay more attention in class and stop yawning here and there altho I know I'll still continue doing it :P haha! I'll try to kill this sleeping in class attitude! :D lololololol.

Maths tuition was fine today. Supposed to start my lesson @ 4pm but endup starting @ 6pm and end @ 630pm :D hahaha! Teacher forgot that I have class @ 4pm so she went and have class with other humans, so yeah. I'll have to wait over there! She gave me test and guess what? I GOT ALL CORRECT!! SEE CLEARLY, A-L-L C-O-R-R-E-C-T!! HAHAHAH! Superb proud of myself okay? :P nyeh!

Anyways, planned to go movie with Yuen Yin tonight but I ended up ffk :( sorry! See you guys tomorrow? :D

And, I miss my girlf most! :'(

( I'm gonna tell you guys story! :D )

Once upon a time, there's two bestfriends, and they are Goh Shu Shian & Sherily Loh.

They met each other on April 2008 during school's koko. They stares at each other and then smile. They don't know how they could get along together so well. They started to get each other's contact number, msn and so on.

They chit-chatted on msn every single day! Slowly, they got more closer than before. One day, Shu Shian told Sherilyn that she's gonna be at Genting for 3 days during March's holidays! And, surprisingly Sherilyn told Shu Shian that she's gonna be there too! Shian's superb happy that day and she can't wait till the day arrive.

Shian had alot alot of fun with Sherilyn in Genting and she couldn't forget what they've done until now. After a few week, Sherilyn gave Shian a big big surprise! :D she chopped her hair and have the same hairstyle as Shian! Shian was really really shocked and they really looked like sisters :)

From that day onwards, they get themselves almost everything the same! They own the same hairstlye, tees, shorts, shoes and more. Every single outing, they wore same thing. Their hands always holding a camera and a phone, they camwhore everywhere and they don't care what other humans think about them. They are who they are :)

Nothing can seperate the both of them. They are always together! Altho they don't text each other or chit-chat on msn like how they used to.. but they are still together.

They go outing together every weekends! And they always end the day with smiley face. They never go emo when they are together. They don't fight, not even once! Yes, they are that close :) hehehehehee.

They even text when one of them are at overseas! They don't even care about their phone bills and credits. As long as, they get to know each other's day and mood. :)

They used to cry, sad, fall, stand, run, jump, walk, smile, laugh, sing together!

But now, Shian left Sherilyn alone in SMK USJ12 school :( Shian wanna see Sherilyn so badly but she couldn't :( she got no enough time to meet up with Sherilyn and sometimes, she cries when she see those memories that Sherilyn had gave her.

Well, the both of them did not see each other since Feb 1 until now. They can't find a proper time to go outing togehther. BUT Shian's pleased to see that Sherilyn got tons of friends around her and take caring of her.

And most important is that, Shian wants Sherilyn to be healthy, strong, happy, cool and hyper! :) Shian knows that Sherilyn's having a hard time but remember, Shian's always here for you :)

Mwah! I miss you, really. alot :'(

--

I hate people forcing me!

And, chill Angel! :(

I'm missing you badly.
I wanted to give up, but I couldn't get over you.

Sigh :'(

XO!

the party don't start till I walk in!

2010-03-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hi. Just got home from Pyramid and skated with the loved ones. Am really exhausted but couldn't go to bed :( hmmm. O well, school was fine today. Awesome day with awesome bfriends! :D never failed to laugh with them eventho I'm really down :)

I need them.

Anyways, finaly I can see Keith Yap in school! Have been looking around for him in school. He went for MSSD without letting me know! Grr. But thank god, he still remembers that he's my "body guard" of the year. Hahahahaha!

Rested awhile after school and off to skate. Many were there and had tons of fun with Joho ;) looked for Yuen Yin after skating session and chit-chatted with her till Daddy arrives! Might be watching movie with her tomorrow :) ohyeah, I had cheese cake for dinner today and I'm starving :(

Another boring school day till HOLIDAYS! Wheeeee :D

Signing off!

XO!

Cause' he was so amazing!

2010-03-09T20:07:00.002+08:00

Hi, back to blog :)

School's was fine. Wanted to skip it so badly but I couldn't! My SISTER and my MUMMY doesnt allows me. (you know who you are okay) hahahaha! Hmmm I guess I know the reason why they wants me to go school :D they won't be having any fun without me okay :P hahahaha kidding :)

Well, I've been dreaming alot in class. I did not pay much attention in class or should say, I DID not pay attention at all. I don't know what is wrong anyway. I just don't have the mood to study! I can't stop myself from dreaming/sleeping and so on..

Monday was a bad day.

I emo-ed in the morning and slept the whole morning. Not gonna talk about it cause it will ruin my mood again. :)

I'm so freaking pissed right now. What's your problem anyway? Why must you know everything? You aren't my mum or whatever. Its nothing about you and its non of your business too. Why can't you just fug off and stop bothering me? Do you know that you're that annoying? Stop asking me such stupid question cause you know I won't answer you.

Stop bugging me around.

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I'm in some really bad mood these few days. Wishing everything will go back to how it used to be.

I'm gonna go finish my homeworks now.

XO!

I miss you and I won't give up.

Grandma's!

2010-03-07T13:09:00.002+08:00

Yellowww!

Currently @ grandma's place now. Am alone right now doing Sivik project? :D I know I'm hardworking lah okay :P hahahaha kidding :) well, I brought my lappy back cause I know Wei Yu's not gonna be @ grandma's as she went lunch with her family @ somewhere over the rainbow LOL!

I don't see any of my cousins over here so I decided to do my homew instead of sleeping nor watch tv cause there is no nice shows on today!

Went sunday school this morning :D and all my friends was like,

Michelle : EYHH? Shu Shian? I didn't expect that you'll come today.
Mun Leng : Yeah thats why! I was shocked too.
Me : Ahahahaha! I didn't come for the two whole freaking months, so I think I should come today. Won't be coming next month I guess? :)
Michelle & Mun Leng : Woah! You arrr.
Me : Hahahaha!

Not just them anyway, teacher's kinda shocked too!

*teacher giving out some paper. Then turned her head and saw me sitting down over there*

Teacher : EYHHH! Shu Shian arrr! Where have you been?
Me : Haha teacher, I'm busy.
Teacher : Oh, okay! Come more often. Filled up this form and remember your fees, RM30! Mun Leng, collect from her next week.
Mun Leng : Okay.
Me : *whispered to Mun Leng* I guess I won't be here next week?
Mun Leng : *shouted at me* WOI AR! YOU BETTER COME AR!!
Me : Okokokokokokok. Hahahaha.

The class ended around 1015am. Had "wan tan mee" for breakfast today :D yumm!

MEH, time passed really really really fast :( have to go school tomorrow! Planned to skip but I failed cause two bestfriends did not allow me :( and omg! I have maths tuition on Tuesday! Triple stress yo. Gotta finish her works asap before I got any complain for her. Bishhh :x

Well, I hate love Monday school! I hate assembly. Seriously.

I just hate schools!

And tuitions!

stress stress stress go away! :(

Lastly, I'm missing Sarah alot alot alot! Seriously. alot. alot. :(

I miss skating around with her, immitating Rosemund & Nigel with her, dinner with her, walked around with her, act stupid with her and lots lots more :( I didn't see her for like almost 2 months! And she will be leaving to Aussie soon :(

I missed her smile the most.

Whatever it is, hope to see you soon.

Loves!

XOXO!

:)

Accepted.

2010-03-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

Vikki & I.

Yoyoyoyoyoyo!

Back from Pyramid and had a great time! :D went skating with Vikki, Brandon, Rosemund, Brandon and others. Reached pyramid around 330pm.

Nothing much happened in the rink today. Nothing special happened too. Hmm, took a lil photo with the loved ones :) will post it up sooner or later :D

After that, got out from the rink around 6pm and then met up with Elly. Had BR ice-cream for our "dinner" before watching movie. We watched,

The Book Of Eli
I rate 8/10

Its a lil disgusting but still, the movie was awesome! :) (for me)

Well, almost fall asleep cos' am really tired today. BUT I DID NOT OKAY! :)hahahaha! Hunt for Elly's dress after movie @ Eclipse. And thank god! She found one :D don't have to walk here and there :P hahahahaha! Elly's parents drop me home! Thanks.

O right, I'm done with today.

XO!

World behind my wall.

2010-03-06T13:07:00.001+08:00

Good Morning! :D

Might be leaving my blog dead for some days again. So, I think I shall just update a lil first :)

Gonna go skate later as I've promised Vikki & the others. Just hope that I won't ffk anyone again. I missed Vikki so much! I really can't wait to see her :D

Anyways, I don't know why am I waking up this early on Saturdays. Its just so weird :O but nevermind, waking up early is a really good thing . Bahahaha! Mmm well, I just complete my maths homeworks gave by tuition teacher yesterday. I did not complete school's cos' I was sleeping all the time. I'll try my very super best for not falling asleep in class next time! Hope it'll works :) hahaha!

Tuition was literally fine yesterday. Did not get scolded by teacher as I complete her works, and listens to what she says and also I did not make any careless mistake on the test she gave me :D am just so proud of myself :P (just for yesterday I prehaps) hah!

Am wondering, when is our next trip to Europe again? :)

Hmm, I think I'll have to wait for another thousand years :( might be following mum and other dealers to Shang-hai during holidays, but still not sure yet! Jasmine will be tagging along with her mum too :D yeay!

Gonna go and watch Room To Let now.

Cyouu guys!

XOXOXOXO!

Starlight tears.

2010-03-06T02:00:00.001+08:00

Hellow mellowwwww! ;)

Am really superb tired right now, but my blog's so empty! :(

Mmmm, went to school today as SOMEONE forced me to (you know who you guys are!) O well I had sleeping the whole morning, and woke up when its recess time :D hahahaha! I can't believe that Angel and Suet Yee did not wake me up :P if they do, I'm gonna slap them! Bwahahahaha!

HAVE to go school next monday or I'll be really dead! But skipping on next friday :P and I have to be in school ON TIME or I'll be really dead too.

Had 1 hour of maths tuition around 4-5pm today. After tuition, got myself prepared and off to Pyramid. Met up with the peoples, then headed to some restaurant for dinner. Had steamboat for dinner :D yummmmmmmmmmm!

Jun Shen, Melvin & Carmen dropped by after dinner. And left around 130am. As usual, laughthers and jokes ;) and, thanks for dropping me home too btw.

Its gonna be 2am nao. So I think I shall go now :D

More updates coming uppp! :D stay tune yaww.

XO!

Life.

2010-03-04T22:04:00.011+08:00

Oh great! I accidetally deleted all my blogpost(s). GREAT! (Y) I'll have to update all over again. And this time, I'll make sure that its not boring.

Ohyahh, check out my new chio skin :D all credits to Vivien Low :D thanks a mill babe!

Well,

Exam's over. Finaly :D don't have to sit infront of bunch of boring books anymore until May's :P I know I have to get prepared by now, but I'm just sho lazy :( I promise I'll study asap! :D

I think I'm gonna fail every subject! I did really bad. Really really really bad! I kept on falling asleep as I felt so boring! I know I'm lil too lifeless but I couldn't control myself well ya'know? :( I tried so hard not to fall asleep but I failed. No matter how early I go to bed, I'll still fall asleep in class. BISH :X

Nevermind, skip that :D

School's fine. Nothing much happened! Never failed to laugh out really loud with the two-best-friends in class. Can't stop myself for not teasing Angel :P right Suet Yee :D HAHAHAHA!

Really nothing happened in school! Uhmm, there is some but I mentioned it all in my old blogpost(s) which I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED JUST NOW. OMG IM SO FREAKING SMART RIGHT?! UGH!

O and, might be skating tomorrow. But.. still see first :) parent's will be away for 1 night. They gonna be at grandma's place with the others dealers and blah blah blah! Gonna stay up the whole night and watch BOF! YEAY YEAY YEAY! :D

I'm kinda like, speechless nao. Stay tune yawww! ;)

Before I leave,

Am really really really missing the girlf! :'(

OH AND,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMYLIA CHAI! :D

Cyouu!